twitter

you know how you can write a short description of yourself on twitter?

it fascinates me how people can come up with catchy things to say. and secretly, it's one of my hobbies - reading people's description of themselves on twitter. :p

here are some which caught my eye (hope this doesn't invade your privacy D:)

see your twitter in there? :p

and here's mine:

it used to be "i'm the queen bitch, fear me." , but who am i kidding? as much as i try to be, i am not intimidating at all. i can be angry and no one would even notice. -___-



i still remember in primary school, i was so angry with this guy for teasing me so i shouted at him. he was stunned, so was everybody else. but wow wow wee, i felt so much authority so every once in a while i'll shout at him. =.=" silly me. hahaha

but oh well, i was young, and wanted to be heard. can't blame me right? xD

HAHA!

hello! hahahaha

did my pic scare you? :DDDD
felt sohai last night, so took these pics of me looking confused and staring off into space. and that's my hair after combing. slightly fluffier than usual.

anyways, my night was wonderful. i combed my hair while watching 'Love Actually' and melting over Hugh Grant's smile. i'm so hardcore.

 i know i know, it's an old movie, but not as old as Hugh Grant. HAHA i have weird taste. maybe one day i should make a post on all the guys i think is hot. it'll be epic.

 "i really need to poop. where's the nearest toilet?"

 "oh sigh. there's no toilet paper here. HOW?!?!!" HAHAHAHA

this one is after pooping punya face. ROFL.

okay just kidding kay!
 i DO NOT stop to pose for photos when i need to go okay! hahah


and lastly, a normal picture of me:

yea man. sibeh messy lah my hair.

follow your arse

so i read this book again last night. it's a special book as it lets YOU decide the ending of the story. so of course i had to give another go, since the last time all my endings were SUCKISH. ie, i lost my best friend and the guy. what??!


and what's worse is i made all my decisions based on what i'd do if this situation occurred in real life. omg so is this a prediction that if i did what i did in real life, my ending would be like that? sucks man. i mean seriously. seems like all the bitchy decisions (in the book) lead to better outcomes. what happened to being a good person huh? T_T


and weird thing is, with every different decision you make, the guy's attitude changes. -___-


for example,
if you choose A, (which often is the right thing to do), he ends up being a psychopath or he suddenly realizes how much he loves your bestfriend and couldn't bear to break up with her. thus, you didn't get the hottie AND you distance yourself from your best friend and turn into a loner.

HOWEVER, if you choose B, (which is the bitchier choice, say, leave your best friend who passed out on the ground and go off with him on his motorcycle), he miraculously realizes how much better off you are compared to your best friend, and opens up to you on things he never told his girlfriend aka your soon to be EX best friend. WTF


STUPID BOOK. or maybe the author's a bitch. that explains a lot.

i just had to

must

resist

urge

to

lick

whip

cream

off

him.




nuff' said. Adam Levine is too sexy. too sexy. 
and those brows, damnnnnnnnnn.

be grateful for the things that did and did not happen

something freaky happened the other day.

watched Final Destination with Doreen and Chang. i was shaking and making weird noises all throughout the movie >:(
i bet nobody would want me as their movie date anymore.

anyways, after we left the cinema, my heart was still pounding. i don't know why i felt so uneasy.
scenes from the movie kept playing back in my head. i look at something and immediately picture something happening which leads to my gruesome death. it was torturing, really.

but just like the movie, there are actually signs leading to the death. but of course in reality we don't die in such a horrifying way lah. *fingers crossed*


well here's the thing that happened:
after the movie, we went home. i was driving that day. sign #1 was that we realized my wipers weren't working well. the windshield was still dirty making it hard to see.

we reached the traffic lights beside the police station. it was a green light so of course i continued driving. however as i was driving midway in the yellow box, only then i noticed sign #2. the car in the slow lane wasn't moving. at first in my head i was thinking, hmm it was a green light, why didn't he drive?

so i took a look at the traffic lights. sure enough, it was green. but alas, after closer look, it was saying that the turning to the right was green, not move forward green. WHAT THE SMURF!

then right before our eyes, sign #3 appeared. a car was U-turning and I was about to drive into it. thank God in the end i managed to brake and turn my car to the left. I heard a bump but til now i'm not sure where that sound came from as there was no damaged on the other car. even my car was unscathed.

it was so so scary. the first thought that came to mind was 'fuck. i'm screwed.'
but praise the Lord, nothing happened. the other driver was stern but he didn't give me a hard time. all he said was, "my gosh you're so young. you're not married right?" i guess what he meant was it would have been such a waste if i died so young. that's really touching in a way. how he valued my life, and didn't even scold me saying that i could have caused him his life, or his car.

and before he left, he also asked me to pray. hahaha. and yes indeed i should.

thank you Lord for keeping me safe that night. thank you for preventing whatever it was that was supposed to happen. Thank you for letting me have Doreen beside me. i probably would have broke down right then right there if she wasn't there. and also, thank you thank you for letting me still be alive. so many things could've happened. there could've been a car from the other side driving at high speed and crashing into me? but for now, i'm just grateful i'm given a second chance. :)

心酸

知道不能得到想要的东西
除了心酸，

只有心酸。

退到了绝境再退

退到了绝境再退

破碎到不能破碎

那么为什么，你就不肯说，我只能猜疑却都错

泪水灌溉这伤悲，

绝望是你赐给的安慰

为何你说慌，我却受惩罚

你不如就用刀刺下

我可以痛了再痛，

你可以错了再错

不甘心，不闪躲， 只为那失真的承诺

我转身让你换着活，

你存心用尽我宽容

为什么连谎言你也刺破？

爱和痛彼此纠结，

悲和我无法分解

厌倦的疲累，

成了一片黑 伤痛都已无法相灭
泪水滋润着泪水，

背叛是你另一种慰藉

完美的借口，泪无不留下，

你不如用乱箭射吧

即使我头也不回，

这悲剧猛向我追

情愿你全部摧毁，

别留着燎原的火堆

给你的自由将我吞没，

给我的爱像一根绳索

你放手却困住了我

为什么…… 连谎言你也不说？

- 张栋梁《错了再错》

x
i put this song on repeat when i'm feeling down. and i love it. 
不懂这是什么变态的感觉，真的很不舒服。
整个人开心不起来，却又说不出为什么。
到底是为了什么？
是真的不知道，还是自己不让自己知道。

love you like a love song

just gonna post up some old photos.
 well they aren't that old, memories from August. :)

somehow things were less complicated then.

night at Al Fresco with awhyo.
look at our crazy faces

 i look slim here. if only that were real.

 finally, a pic where we look equally fair. :P
btw it's been so long i miss yo ass already! :( :(

with mum! :)

 love Heidi's expression here.
and she has no idea what 'cheap' means. she highlighted her hair for rm200+ and she said it was cheap. *faints*

 just to make Doreen jealous! :>

 i love this. especially the one where i'm petting the hamster and Heidi's poking it. ahaha cuteness!

iphone covers!!
love the pearl hello kitty. checked the shop the other day and it was gone! can't believe people actually buy from that shop. ughh but looking at it makes me want to buy it.

 so this was last Tuesday.
went visiting in the morning with Jac's family, her dad brought us sight seeing too. what an eye opener that day was. never knew Miri had so many crazy rich people.

at night, it was our performance. and after we headed to Al Fresco to drink our sorrows away :]
and coincidentally, there was a lot of people cause they were there for the Merdeka countdown!

and on Merdeka day itself, went out with awhyo for high tea at Citrus. after that, we headed to Parkson to buy tissues! lolol look at the amount of tissues bought :p

after that we left for Merdeka Mall to catch our movie! :B Cars 2. it was damn friggin funny. til this day i still couldn't find my ass. i accidentally laughed my ass off that day :S

and lastly, had KFC for dinner! wuahaha. honesly my burger sucked. the meat was so hard :( but enjoyed it nevertheless. hehehe

jetlagged

my pretty new friend :P
been pretty busy lately. short on money too! like that's new. so i'm trying my best to focus only on buying a new phone for now.

so which phone do you think i should get?

the latest BB Bold 9900? with its sexy touchscreen and qwerty keypad is to die for, but it's like friggin RM2190, almost same price as iPhone4. might as well just get an iphone right?

or BB Bold 9780, which is 1.5k?

or just get BB Curve, which is RM800 or so. haha. save my money even

i just really want a phone so badly right now, so my mind can rest and i can stop saving and just buy whatever i damn well please.  take that hello kitty plush for instance, (the one selling in the fun fair outside of Parkson for *cough* RM200!!!!) lmao.


xx

anyways, i received an email on a product that allows you to save any audio/video/music clip played on your browser into your computer! i think that's pretty cool.

Capture flash video and audio from any website to your computer

the product is known as JCopia. want to know more? simply click here.




xx

haha okayy that is all from me.
gonna end with a meaningful quote:

"if you cannot forgive others, how do you expect God to forgive you?"

marry me ;)

i love your humour

i love your vain

i love your handsome

and the smirk on your face

i love your brows 

so thick and fine

and that smile of yours

makes my heart go wild

you're everything i want

you're everything i need

if things were different

i'd ask you to marry me. 

;) 

believe it or not, i wrote this poem. 

so screw you if you don't believe me. :D

haha. i love my bracelets :P 

the window

just wanted to squeeze in an update though i have like, tonnes of other more important things i should be doing. hehe


had an eventful weekend.
celebrated AC's belated birthday on Friday at 72 Bian. just look how big the crowd was. haha

 first time lor so many people. even Awhyo not this crowded. haha

 caught a movie after dinner.
 Zoo Keeper. have you watch it? haha it's hilarious!

inside cinema also camwhore. *shakes head*

bought these hair ties. so adorable!! :>


then Saturday night, had dinner with Doreen and Adrian at Citrus. hoho.

 i secretly think they make a cute couple :P

ngek ngek ngek. my crazy psycho babe! :D <3

and dinner at Citrus wouldn't be perfect without~~ *drum roll please*

their infamous Symphony Waffles. hehehehehe <3


that was our farewell dinner for Adrian cause he's leaving to KL soon :((
all the best in your studies hubby! doubt you'll ever see this, but still. :D

x

anyways, i guess probably most of you already saw this coming..

i photoshoped another picture of mine!! and i can't believe i'm gonna say this, but i look gorgeous!! wtf

my gosh. who is this stunning Caucasian?!

okay seriously i crack myself up.



x
and last but not least, some wise words before i end this post.

remember the Window episode in How I Met Your Mother?
I do! and I love that show because it teaches us many things about life. it's like Ted's Guide in coping with failure in life & love, and how you need friends to get through life.

first off, you have Ted's BFF Marshall, -who kinda reminds me of Bryan probably cause of the height-, who's kinda awkward and geeky, but never fails to be there for you in times of need.

and you have Lily, the friend who has a lot of opinion and won't rest til you take her advice. i don't really like her, to me she's kinda manipulative. but then again, she's good sometimes, kind hearted and just wants the best for everyone.

Robin, best friend slash ex lover of Ted. this goes to show that sometimes (though not recommended) ex-es CAN still be friends. but honestly she's kinda weird and desperate, very career minded she is. but just like the others, she's a good friend. the only one who is brave enough to bitch slap Lily if she goes overboard.

Then we have the friend everybody loves to hate -- Barney Stintson.
who doesn't love Barney? ahaha. the Barney who created the bro code, the one who overuses the word 'legend.... -wait for it- dary' and who loves giving high fives. the one who has a witty comeback to just about everything, and claims himself as Ted's best friend. though a player in nature, he'd do just about anything for the girl he loves.

Last but not least, we have Ted. Ted's a nice guy. struggling through life, just like all of us. i like him because he's strong, he believes in his dreams and goals, and he fights for them. He believes in fate, and he never stopped believing that he would find the perfect girl and marry her. and he did. (though we still DON'T KNOW WHO THE HELL HIS WIFE IS!) He's hard headed, and sometimes ends up making silly decisions. and here's what i love most about him -- he sticks with his choices, and though he ends up hurting/humiliating himself, he regrets nothing. He is true to himself and his choices and that's what i admire most about him. :)



okayy back to the Window episode. in that episode, there's this girl that Ted has been waiting to date for years. every time she breaks up, her neighbor would call Ted and tell him that "the window's open". and every year, Ted rushes to her apartment, wanting to console her and hopefully becoming her next boyfriend, but every year, someone beats him to it. so he decided that this was the last straw, the next time the damn window opens, he's gonna be the first there no matter what.

and indeed, his chance came, and he was the first to arrive. he brings her to their usual bar. He was gone for awhile and as always, someone beat him to the girl, and the guy ends up marrying her. though disappointed with his defeat, as always, Ted accepts the fact and gives them his blessing.

to me, this episode portrays a really important and meaningful message --- if something wasn't meant to be yours, then no matter how hard you try to make it happen, it just won't. maybe that's the mystery in life, why sometimes hard work simply doesn't pay off.

i think i'm saying this because there's this guy, he's totally my type (to be honest) but he has a gf. so i was thinking to myself, what if one day he breaks up with her, maybe i should rush there first so i'd have my chance. ROFL. but you read my post right? i'm assuming you did. so you should know that i won't do that. ;D


(and i can't believe i wrote all these words just because of one thought that flashed through my head)

how to smile with teeth ah?

hoho. decided to blog cause i tried camwhoring with my teeth showing and bloody it was mortifying. i don't think i can ever smile with my teeth showing. >:( 

sometimes, i look back on past photos and I see this innocent (kinda sakai) girl smiling with her teeth looking like the happiest girl on earth.

not that i'm not happy now, i guess i'm just insecure with the way my teeth looks cause many commented on my gums whenever i laugh. -_- 

okayy with that said, i now present to you -------- (please oh please don't let this ruin my image) --- me smiling with my teeth. 

the one on the left just looks weird! it doesn't even look like me!! or am i just overreacting? LOL!

i don't think it'll ever work. screw it.

  x

moving along,

check out this picture of myself. does it remind you of a certain something?
messy hair, white skin, crazy looking eyes staring at a distance. rofl. think think. gave me goosebumps when i opened this picture on my com -0-

is that grass growing on my hair... or? 

and for what it's worth, a nice pic of me and Doreen. hehehe :) 

new camera he he he

in case you didn't know, dad bought a new camera last Sunday :D
and him getting a new camera = me having a new camera to use!  life's good oh yeah.

haven't really got used to it though. and not quite sure whether i like this more or my older one. hahaha though it's a very old model (the previous one) I somehow grew fond of it. :S
and it tears me apart knowing that the only way to revive it is to buy a new battery, which costs RM100++++ ugh.


 so anyways, here are some of the pics taken with the new cam. haha I even made some side by side pics of similar objects. tssk
plus, my room light is spoiled, so most of the pics are taken in the dark, with flash. haha




oh ya, the burgers were taken at different time periods

what do you think? which camera is better? :/

KFCK burger Doreen and I had last night. yum yumm.
we went there after gym and frankly speaking, i think all our hard work went away with the wind after eating these T_T

 took this at the shop while dad was talking to the guy. omg i love this pointless pic. hahaha

 not so flattering pic of myself and bro. well at least he looks good here -_-
scratch that. why is he taller than me?!

 my old camera. don't worry mummy still loves you :))

:)

money, Y U NO MINE?!

" 据说某心理调查是： 

如果一个穷小子冒充有钱人和你恋爱，然后被你发现。
你会如何反应？ 90%的人选：坚决断绝关系，诚实是最重要的品质之一。 

过了一个月，这个网站又出了一道题：如果一个有钱人冒充穷人和你​恋爱，然后被你发现。
你会如何反应？ 90%的人选： 继续交往，我爱的是他的人，又不是他的钱。"

hahaha i find this rather amusing. okay okay before beginning my rant, i better translate the above so that some of you who can't read chinese, will know what i'm ranting about.

"Based on a psychological research:
If a poor guy pretends to be a rich ass to go out with you, and you found out. what would you do?
90% chose to end the relationship - Honesty is most important in a relationship. 

A month later, the same website posted another question:
If a rich guy pretends to be a poor guy and goes out with you, and you found out. what would you do?
90% chose to stay in the relationship - I fell for his personality, not his money."

goes to show that we all are money seeking bitches. as much as we try to deny it, try to cover up that ugly truth, it's there. it's always been there and it's just in our nature.

"money is the root of all evil" 

familiar? so many quotes contradicting each other. take these other two for example:

"whoever says that money can't buy happiness simply didn't know where to shop."


"they say money can't buy happiness. but i rather be sad in my BMW." 

HAHAHA. SHALLOW. WE'RE ALL FUCKING SHALLOW. 

society made us this way. so stop being hypocrites and deny your love for money. who doesn't love money?? WHO?

if I had money, i wouldn't have to think twice, i'd probably already have that Blackberry phone i've been longing for for ages. An iphone to go with it perhaps. and a branded bag, heels that aren't meant for walking but makes me look taller and at the same time works out my ass. what else? maybe slimming session or slimming pills so I'd look better. a driver so I won't have to go through the trouble of finding parking places and paying samans. (oh wait, i have money, i'd probably block someone on purpose since the money don't matter anyways)

If I had money, and i mean LOTS of money, i'd visit the saloon every other day, to make sure my gorgeous locks are in perfect condition. I'd have all the latest fashion clothes, simply because I can pull the look off, and because i'm rich enough to follow the latest trends, so why not? I'd fly first class to Hong Kong, Taiwan, Japan, Korea, New York, Paris, just to stock up on my brands. Hermès, Prada, Chanel, Versace, Miu Miu, Louis Vuitton and whatnot. life's good when you're rich.

If I had money, I'd organize fancy parties in Balcony (cause that's the most happening place in like, Miri). free liquor all night. who wouldn't love me? all the hot guys with big big guns will come rushing over and probably strip for me. HAH! not to forget my super expensive BMW sports car i'd be driving in, I might even get my own special reserved parking spot right beside the place. sweet. face it, we're all money's bitch. we'd do just about anything for money. money money money money and more money. $$$$$$$$!



okayy. i had to wipe my drool after writing all that. imagine, if I had all the money in the world, I can buy everything on my wishlist. how wonderful life would be. but fact is, i don't got all that money. life sucks and it's my reality. so don't go saying shit like "it's not about the money money money", cause guess what?! life IS all about the money. I don't see Curtin giving free education for us. PFFFFT!

if I was paid to study I'd probably be more hardworking. #justsaying

s.t.b.m.

i know i know, i've been neglecting this blog of mine, writing just one or two sentences and calling it a post. :c

been quite down lately.. don't really need to elaborate on that. not sure how to either. listening to these sad songs, the melody tickles my heart but instead of laughing, it feels like crying. haha.
this bitter sweet feeling is just, indescribable. i hate this sadness, yet it's all i have. and somehow, i've grown to love its presence. not sure what i'm saying here, but yeah, maybe i'm just slowly losing my mind.

anyways, Bry left for US today. it's sad really. knowing that he won't be here anymore. :(
soon there won't be anyone here anymore.... why like this?

this is my youngest brother. he really is... something else. haha
he's the funniest thing i swear.

i laugh at his jokes, well not all, some are rather lame. and Saturday night during dinner he suddenly pulled a new stunt, again. hahaha!!

i don't know how he did it but he sucked the side of his face in and put chopsticks into the 'hole'. LOOL!!! and there he is demonstrating the same stunt.....  with pens -__-



xxxxx

the above was my failed attempt to revive my blogging mojo. no such luck. i've officially lost it. whatever drive i had in the past is gone. i don't know how to blog anymore. pictures i share on facebook, thoughts i pour out in twitter. only things that are too long to be shared in twitter i post here on my blog. le sigh. i'm sorry bloggie. will you forgive me? >:( 

i'll do it tomorrow

Macbeth:

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,

Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,

To the last syllable of recorded time;

And all our yesterdays have lighted fools

The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!

Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,

That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,

And then is heard no more.

It is a tale

Told by an idiot,

full of sound and fury,

Signifying nothing.

Macbeth Act 5, scene 5, 19–28

 seriously, i'm too lazy for my own good.
when will i change?

hur?

You saw a shirt for $97. You didn’t have the cash, so you borrowed $50 from your mom and $50 from your dad = $100. You bought the shirt, and had $3 change. You gave your dad $1 and your mom $1 and kept the other $1 for yourself. Now you owe your mum $49 and your dad $49. 49+49 = 98 + your $1 = 99. Where is the missing $1?

mind blown? hahaha someone please explain this to me cause i really am clueless. where did the $1 go?! 

x

fake a smile,
 no one has to know the battles you're fighting inside.

:)

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