we're always wanting more.

an update... to cover up the hideous photoshop pictures in my previous post. haha neways, seems like my skin is getting better. with all the extra sleep i'm having nowadays. :D (holidays wahaha)

had steamboat at Katty's house last night. went to Boulevard during lunchtime to buy the ingredients. since we were there, decided to try interview for the PC fair. who knew, the guy gave us brochures and asked us to research on the printers function blah blah then come back the next day for a second interview. that's fine by me except the fact that other people came and they didn't have to learn all that shit. face problem :(


today kinda sucks. all these tears keep falling, its been awhile since i cried. not for a guy, don't worry. LOL! family problems again. feel so frustrated at my parents sometimes. like my dad, for example. i just don't get it. have we no feelings? do we not feel hurt when you tell to our face that you rather have only two children (two little bros) instead of four. because we're so hard headed etc etc etc. oh my gosh. i've heard enough. seriously. all these pricks from your words. maybe you don't realize it. maybe we really are worthless in your eyes. sigh. 哭过就好

and then there's the problem of not-having-enough-money-to-use-during-the-long-holidays. argh. it's not easy, finding a job. how i wish there's a typing job. haha. i'd like that. :P  

and sorry to my dear Awhyo. :(
still haven't met up with Susan and Karen. hais hais. plus tonight's supposed to be Noorul's party. and i can't make it because my dear daddy decided to ground us. threatening us to bring our clothes with us if ever we dare step out of the house today. see how hard things are for me?

okay no more sad thoughts. pictures :) 

 look at their faces. hahahaha Wee so hungry hor. wahaha

look at my hamster!!!! :D :D :D
one of the things that makes me happy :)

ahhhh i remember once none of us bothered feeding and all the hamsters got so thin. :( it really hurt seeing them lose so much weight! but after a few days of intensive care, they grew fat again. hehe. and i placed back the hamster wheel, but they're too lazy to figure out how to use it. :P
once was even funnier. i went to check up on them, and the Bean Bean lookalike one (points up) and another white hamster were stuck inside the house. HAHAHA
so they were like facing each other, and so close. and the look on their face was as if i caught them both in bed. ROFL. and it's funny cause they're both males!!! :P :P :P

holidays yay

you like muh hair? :D
i think i look good in white. rofl. :)


well, it's the holidays for me. 3 friggin months of doing nothing. hahaha oh me oh my. doesn't that sound fantastic? it's Friday today. and Susan's coming back tonight i suppose. wahaha Karen babe's coming back soon, though i'm not sure when. oh and the picture of me above ^ is like so disturbing. wtf. i PS-ed too much, even my nose bridge is gone. HAHA and my face color is totally uneven. but i'm lazy to change it so yeah what evvs.


to make up for that, i did photoshop gorgeous pics of Bryan and Carrie! :D
check check check it out~

 sui bo? :D

okay the following pics are not edited.
had roti kosong at some malay shop with awhyo the other day. then Dessert Master after! haha
it was a full day. yum yum tonnes of food. woots

 wonder who's sexy chest this belongs to.

 that's PL flirting with the cashier. hahaha

Mango Sago. yum yumm. shared this with my laopo. (erm, my laopo is so not the dude in the pic k? -.-)  update on Dessert Master available in the food blog. :D

haha yay i like this pic. can't wait for you guys to get back so we can shop together, just like old times :)


now for the young hotties: 

 little bro. haha avoiding the camera ei?

 had dinner at Miri Cafe with the family the other night. update of the food available in the food blog as well. haha okay i should really stop promoting our food blog xD 
it was to celebrate my #2 brother's 6A's in UPSR :D
time flies doesn't it? he's going to secondary already. so soon. :')

haha cutie at the pujut 2 abc store. :D

 party at AC's house ze other day. :) don't we look lovely? haha

i think i look nice in these two hair colors. ROFL. okay more to the left lah. the right one is too... bright. only ang moh's can pull it off :S

neways, i used the red pink one as msn dp and told Bobby that i dyed my hair. and he actually believed it! or so i thought -.-
turns out he knew it was fake but played along anyways. what the heck. the fooler was fooled. :(

i'm having really bad skin nowadays. i've became darker, no idea why. i've been at home for one whole week studying my ass off. ahem. sort of. but still, how did i become darker? :\ i needs some SKII. hahaha :D

but that's good too. you guys won't have to squint at the sight of my camwhore photos. haha win win situation, no?

don't bother

i know i screwed up. all the procrastinating and whatnot. yeah i totally deserve this. but i think i've let go of it already. there's no use crying over spilt milk, that's how the saying goes.
if I really do fail i pray that I'd get the supplementary test! I'll definitely start studying a week before. xD 

and one more thing. the exam supervisor this morning sucked!!! BULLSHIT LAH HER. she tear out my equation paper because i stick another piece of paper onto it. like that also cannot meh? it's not like there's something behind my piece of paper what. people not enough time to copy ma so pasted someone else's paper onto mine. LIKE THAT ALSO WRONG?


YOU WERE LATE TOO, YOU DON'T SEE ME COMPLAINING THE SHIT OUT OF YOU. somemore got write down my name if not mistaken. tmd. at least tell me what the fuck is going on? mlm

but please. the last thing i want to hear right now, is how easy the test was. okay?
thanks.  so don't go mentioning bout the test anymore you cunts

written last night.

what is this feeling? insecurities? i feel it slowly eating me up, swallowing me whole. i don't feel so good. where did my energy go to? what have i been doing all day? no studying done whatsoever. Electrical Systems. honestly, i am clueless about this subject. failed my midterm, horribly. now, i can't even be bothered to study? what am i thinking? clearly i'm not thinking. i guess my mind's preoccupied with the fact that the holidays are coming!

blargh. holidays? i don't got no money to last me 3 months. that's the fact. i need to work. but i don't know where. another problem. sigh. and something's wrong with the internet connection in my area. NO CONNECTION SINCE AFTERNOON. ughh bloody hell. no wonder i'm cranky.

i played piano for ages. playing every music note that i've printed in the past but never bothered to play. and man, I've improved a lot cause most of the songs i wasn't able to play back then, i am able to play now. :D finally something to rejoice in. not only that, i also tried playing Jay Chou's shuo le zai jian. and shuo hao de xing fu ne? emo songs, just to my liking. i guess that's why i'm feeling emo now. *smacks forehead*

I MISS YOU! so friggin' much i don't even know why. doubt i'll be seeing you Thursday, which is the last day of me going to Curtin. but Miri is small, i just might bump into you maybe once, in the course of three months FML. so yeah, Melo is sad. :C

super duper FML kind of sad. i really wish to see your face, and see you smile at me. is that too much to ask for?

but if I had to choose between seeing you or passing my ES, I'd definitely choose the later, just saying.

ROARRR

NO.

oh boy what flavour?!

oh my gosh. this gif is so cute i can stare at it all day and just.... laugh. hahaha
it's like.. their mouths. they talk so fast. okay i needa chill. i'm laughing like an asshole right now. rofl.

damn it's Wednesday already. hahahaha. how did that happen? finals is in less than a week. and i'm not even halfway through my revision studies. ughh. tomorrow will be more productive. i promise :)

i doubt i'll get to study today. let today be an off day for myself. :D shall study a few slides tonight. cos i'm off to Sanjeet's house in a while, then tennis at 6pm, dinner with awhyo (probably) and last but not least, movie with musketeers. rofl. my life is so happening. ha ha.

oh and did I mention i finally made a bank account? yay for me! :] the process was kinda funny and confusing. the guy told me that the minimum was rm250 but I only had rm60 with me. so I was like "isn't the minimum rm20??" and he looked confused too -_-

but in the end all was well because hell yeah i've got a bank account! :D let's just hope i'll be putting money in more than taking out money. -___-

x

okayy gonna get ready now. Doreen's at Sanjeet's house already and she won't stop harassing me on FB saying stuff like "suck ma dick bitch".
please, as if her dick's longer than mine. *rolls eyes*

you, study, go!

yo buddy. aren't you supposed to be fighting crimes or something?

have you ever realized how fragile life is?

there is only a thin line, separating life and death. 
everyday is a miracle. everyday, is a gift from God. we must always remember that all we have is given to us by God. He can take every single thing back. With the snap of His fingers, we can lose all the worldly possessions that we have. so be grateful. do good to others and live life to the fullest. and remember that not everyone is as lucky to wake up to a new day. not everyone is able to see how beautiful things are. not everyone is as lucky to have a home. not everyone has a family. not everyone has food to eat. so when you're sitting there complaining how this fish is too salty, this drink too sweet, remember that there are people who are starving with no food to eat. (omg it rhymed!)

instead, be grateful for all that you have. for the people who stood by you, the people who were always there. for true friends who are always caring and wanting the best for you. be happy that you have a family who loves you, for some people are orphans. 


i have to say that i am truly blessed with so much. God loves me so. haha. He really does. i'm really grateful for still being alive. there are so many times in the past where i told myself how i wish i was dead, so I won't have to go through this exam. seriously? giving up my life just for a damn examination? silly me. i remember telling that to my mum jokingly, and she said to me: a friend of mine has cancer, and she is fighting to live, and here you are healthy, and you say you want to die? 

i cried after hearing that, in my room of course. haha. well, tears are dripping down my face right now. i don't know why i'm so emotional. and nope, this isn't sadness. life has been good to me thus far. :) 


i realized i've grown a lot. i think? now i don't feel like dying to escape the world. (excuse me but i'm not suicidal FYI) and i don't think that much bad thoughts about my parents nowadays. hahaha 
though i'm still a little tardy, and too pro a procrastinator, deep down, i'm still a sweet little angel. *ahem. 


oh and i've learnt things too. like how powerful words are.
sometimes, we say things that hurt people. but sometimes, a simple sorry doesn't fix everything. the wound is still there whether you want to accept the fact or not. 


sometimes we cry, because we feel hurt. hurt by the words thrown at us, or words we wish to hear, but remained unspoken. sometimes all we need is a simple "i believe in you", or "if there's one thing a bitch like you can do, it's this". 
y'know? 
friendship. supporting your friend til the end. i want that. it's that too much to ask from you? 






x


enough with this emo shit. time for some promotion. haha 
i've been seeing this ad on my blog for the past few days. it's about the Nokia X3 Touch and Type. it comes in pink!! HOT PINK!!! OMG 


so of course I went to google more realistic pictures of it. and wow wow wow.. it's even gorgeous compared to the pictures. :3 

see how the pink in this picture is slightly purple/violet? 


here's how it looks like in real life: (not that i've actually seen the real thing - the power of Google, people.)

ah ah ah ah ah. i LOVE THIS SHADE OF PINK IT IS GORGEOUS!!!! :\ 
it's called Nokia X3 Touch and Type because it's touchscreen AND comes with keypad. haha I watched the video and at the end, the guy said "that's what I love about the Nokia X3 Touch and Type. It uses what's always been around, and turns it into something new."
cheesy. 
more importantly, it has a 5mp camera and costs around rm700? (website based) 
most importantly, IT IS PINK. PINK PINK PINK. HOT PINK. 

ok lah i think i better start studying now so I can ace my test and demand my dad buy this for me. lololol 




x


another thing is, tumblr is seriously fun. i guess i pretty much learnt a lot from there as well. so many quotes, funny stuffz. mostly humour. plus I try to type in proper english now cause most of the people there are ang moh's and i feel that they don't understand all my 'weiiiii' 'lahhhh' and all those slangs. haha. all i can say is, their english is too pro! :\ 


oops did I forget to mention that tumblr provides me with my daily dose of cute guys as well? <3 
am gonna love tumblr til the day I ____ :) 


so yeah, before I end this super long post, some nice pics from tumblr. wonder how many people will join tumblr after reading this. haha :P 
OH, stay tuned for the hot guy at the end of the post. ;DDDDD 
I declare him the hottest cute guy in tumblr thus far. ;] 

okokok the hottieeeee. ---- Eduardo Surita. whoever you are, you're gorgeous. 

yay? actually there's one more picture of him. i'll try to dig for it. 
FOUND IT! :D

THIS. <3 

:')

“Peeta,” I say lightly. “You said at the interview you’d had a crush on me for ever. When did for ever start?”

“Oh, let’s see. I guess the first day of school. We were five. You had on a red plaid dress and your hair … it was in two braids instead of one. My father pointed you out when we were waiting to line up,” Peeta says.

“Your father? Why?” I ask.

“He said, ‘See that little girl? I wanted to marry her mother, but she ran off with a coal miner,’” Peeta says.

“What? You’re making that up!” I exclaim.

“No, true story,” Peeta says. “And I said, ‘A coal miner? Why did she want a coal miner if she could’ve had you?’And he said, ‘Because when he sings … even the birds stop to listen.’”

“That’s true. They do. I mean, they did,” I say. I’m stunned and surprisingly moved, thinking of the baker telling this to Peeta. It strikes me that my own reluctance to sing, my own dismissal of music might not really be that I think it’s a waste of time. It might be because it reminds me too much of my father.

“So that day, in music assembly, the teacher asked who knew the valley song. Your hand shot right up in the air. She stood you up on a stool and had you sing it for us. And I swear, every bird outside the windows fell silent,” Peeta says.

“Oh, please,” I say, laughing.

“No, it happened. And right when your song ended, I knew – just like your mother – I was a goner,” Peeta says.

Peeta and Katniss | The Hunger Games

oh i remember the days...

when I had fair skin. like very fair. during form 5 I was very dark tanned, especially after a tennis competition. miraculously, during the long holiday after SPM, being stuck at home and all, i became a whole lot fairer. but i secretly credit Doreen for my sudden fairness, cause she gave me a few L'Oreal whitening masks. haha thanks babe <3

these two pics are from our KL trip, January of this year.
oh damn.. how fair I used to be. it's like I slapped powder onto my face. lmao


and no, no after pic, because i don't need people comparing and telling me that "OMG you seriously gotten a whole lot darker." and after giving them my evil glare and releasing some death aura, they'd be like "oh no I didn't mean that in a bad way." 

yeh, i'm sure you didn't. *rolls eyes*



another thing. I realized my hair isn't as curly as it used to be. :(
why like that? I knew looking at old pics was a bad idea!

arghhh. quite nice leh my hair in this pic. or maybe God was kind and gave me a good hair day on my birthday. hahaha <3

bah.... that's all I have to say. no more fair skin, no more very-curly hair.
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LMAOSHMSFOAIDMT

the weather's been a bitch the past few days. hot, then cold, and hot again. seriously, make up your mind on whether you want to rain or shine! it's confusing and made my pimples grow. 

and what really pisses me off, is that i can't seem to find a time to wash my damn car. it's either too hot, or raining. the perfect example would be Saturday. the weather was lovely in the morning - no sun, no rain, clear sky, the perfect time to wash your car, or so I thought.

I took the cloth out, and just as I did, the sun came out. WTF. it's like so damn hot just like normal days in Miri, (which FYI, is VERY HOT). I was like, "come on?! I can't be that unlucky?". so I continued to walk out of the house but was stopped by dad. he thought I was crazy wanting to wash the car when it's so hot. LOL! so fine, i told myself I'd wash my car in the afternoon.

x

however, as I was driving back home, i noticed something strange. there were dark clouds at my area then the other area is like, clear blue sky. KNS!!!!

see! this is proof that I didn't made that up. it was already raining by the time i reached the traffic light. shitty much. my plan to wash the car failed once again. 

 sunlight on the other side!!! :(

at that time I was like......

then when I reached home, dad was outside cleaning the house cause he had guests arriving that night. so I told him about this morning and how it rained so suddenly as if wanting me to not wash my car.

me: whyyyy??????? why like that one?

dad: you know why? because you're lazy. *laughs*

-_________________-

those words of wisdom, NOT! struck me hard. and I decided that I shan't let the weather decide what I can and cannot do. 

I WILL WASH MY CAR EVEN IF IT'S THE LAST THING I DO!

and so I did.

eat shit

police? to me, you're nothing but doughnut eating fat asses who get paid for driving around in your police cars. serve justice? pffft stop kidding yourself please.


so a friend of mine got into a car accident just recently. here's a map to make explaining the whole thing easier.

so, my friend was on her way to Ming's. the traffic light was green, so she turned. who knew, there was a Kenari speeding from the north, and the stupid driver didn't even bother to step on the brakes. is he in such a hurry that he didn't notice my friend's car crossing into the junction? and my friend clearly saw that the traffic light was green, then why did the asshole continued speeding even when the traffic light is RED in his direction?? fucking blind is it?

the Kenari hit the side of my friend's car. the left side, thank goodness, not the driver's side. imagine, her car did a 180 degree turn after being hit. thank God she's alright. and guess what? how unlucky of her that the driver of the Kenari is a fucking police. just because you are a police you have the right to disobey the traffic light signal?

in my opinion, it's so fucking obvious that it's the Kenari's fault. his car fucking hit the side of my friend's car. don't give me shit like the light is green and so on, there's a fucking car there and yet you still go ahead and bump into it? fucker. after that, you go and call all your doughnut eating buddies and put on a show of measuring the road blah blah blah. then in the end concluded that it's my friend's fault? LMAO?

you're pathetic. seriously. i pity you. she's a girl, for Pete's sake. bullying her with your shit talk and fake act. and you call yourself a man? i feel sorry for your sorry asses. I look down on you, for abusing your authority like that. just because you're a police doesn't mean you're right in everything. pfffffft. shame on you. seriously, shame on you.

one day, karma will come knocking on your door, and let you have a taste of your own medicine. let's see who's laughing then. hah! can't wait to see your downfall. :)

P/s: i'm not saying all policemen are like that. who knows there might still be justice loving policemen who do their best to restore peace in this small town of Miri. i'm just saying. no need to get pissed, i am not talking about you. or am I? depends on what kind of police you are.

:)