you think you know everything about me. you don't.
you think that what you presume is always right, but guess what, you're wrong. and fuck it i'm so tired of defending myself cause at the end of the day YOU JUST DON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND.

everything i do or say is wrong. and whatever justification i have of my actions are ignored. you say i'm not grateful for the things i have, but what about you?

are you grateful for all those times i was a good girl?

every fucking time i ask for something, you make my bad day worse by assuming that i'm putting on a long face because i didn't get what i want. you have your way with everything now, don't you?

i'm just tired of all the shit i have to go through in this house. in all honesty i'm glad you're working in Brunei. less shit for me to deal with. like fuck it. fuck everything. 

C:

It's the boy you never told I like you
It's the girl you let get away
It's the one you saw that day on the train
But you freaked out and walked away

It's the plane you wanna catch to vegas
Things you swear you'll do before you die
It's the city of love that waits for you
But you're too damn scared to fly

It's the time that you totally screwed up
Still you're trying to get it out your brain
It's the fight you had when you didn't make up
It's the past that you're dyin' to change

It's all the money that you're saving

While the good life passes by

It's all the dreams that never came true

Cause you're too damn scared to try

It's a mad, mad world
Gotta make an escape
It's a perfect world
When you go all the way
Hit the lights

Let the music move you and 

Lose yourself tonight

"Sometimes the love of love makes us completely delusional. We hear what we want, we hold on to “what if”s and “maybe”s and to the desperate belief that we may change a man and his desires…when we know someone isn’t right for us, yet we love the way they make us feel, even temporarily, do we walk away and avoid heartache? Or do we stick around for the sake of a good time, and because maybe, just maybe, he may change his mind about us?" 

- CARRIE BRADSHAW, SACRIFICES, AND ONE SIDED RELATIONSHIPS-CANDICE SESI FOR HELLOGIGGLES x just had to have this on my blog. <3

instead of butterflies, you leave this bittersweet feeling in my stomach

"what I witnessed just now was beautiful. life in its full glory.
with everyone dancing,clapping and singing, rejoicing to the Lord with all their strength
it was beautiful




never have I seen something more majestic. haha it touched me. it really did. I never knew love was so near, if only we reached out and grab it. 


at the end of the night, people i don't know of came up to me and thanked me for the wonderful music. 


such a simple compliment you might think, but it touched me deeply. 


it feels so good, having someone look you in the eye and say thank you. 


everything is beautiful, all worries cease. and for once, everything was perfect. 


and I bet everyday can be perfect too, if only I face it with the right attitude - with love. "

x

i wrote that few days back, after the second day of the conference, but had no time to post it up. so i'm posting it now :D

the 3 days of conference was life changing. i really missed those days, the people and the band. sigh. but just like a really great movie, it is over, and i have to put myself together and get on with life. :)

amazing people :)

last but not least, with Fr. John Amsberry from America :D

11/11/11

last Friday (11/11/11 :D), Doris, Kri and I had steamboat. 

went through a series of unfortunate events before finally arriving at the place. but it was all worth it! 

firstly, we actually wanted to try out the new steamboat place at Boulevard area. but alas the place was packed with people and we had no booking. saw Joanna sapo there too. lolol. a funny incident happened but i think it's best not to mention it HAHAHA (you know i know lah xD) 

so we decided to just find some place to eat in Permy Mall, since it opened on the day. i was already starving by then, and seeing the line of cars to the mall definitely didn't help. finding a place to park was a hard task, and the funny thing was, we saw the steamboat place that Doris showed us on facebook. so yeah, we ended up eating there :p

the place was jam packed too!! D: but thankfully, we managed to find a place. and believe it or not our luck was so rotten that day the moment we stepped into the place, it blacked out. -_- 

but like i said, all is well. and we had a great steamboat :] 

 Doris!

 just look at the size of that prawn!! :O

 Kri!

sooooo sorry i had to eat you. muahaha. 

<3 

didn't manage to upload the pics on facebook. technical problems i guess. but my gosh look at our steamboat pot. wtf wtf. *DROOLS* 

and after our wonderful dinner, we walked over to Permy Mall. it was already 10pm++ and yet the place was filled with people. haha all so sakai go see the new mall, including us! 

 a shot of the Christmas Tree on the way down the escalator. oops the star's missing! Haha

at the end of the night, we were all oily and tired. but i insisted on a picture cause well, need proof that we spent 11/11/11 together bah right? xDDD

x 

on Sunday, my lil' bro received his first Holy Communion! :D 

IS HE CUTE OR WHAT??? *PINCH CHEEKS* 

wuahaha sorry i'm obsessed with my own lil' brother. :O 

 family photo without my 1st bro. he was working

eheh nice candid shot of everyone EXCEPT ME WTF SPOILER. 

anyways moving on. 

i have nothing more to say. i love food. but food makes me unphotogenic. cheh. stupid life and it's hard choices. imma go sleep now. nights! 

 look at their adorable faces. haha

Shark Night!

crap, forgot to blur my pores -_- oh well. (btw i look like a fish HAHA)

it's been awhile eii? no more decent posts nemore, i was so so lazy that i didn't even camwhore anymore. til a few days back when i suddenly had this strong urge to put on eyeliner. hence, camwhore queen iz back :D


anyways, be prepared to see tonnes of camwhore pics in this post. i'm so sorry on your behalf :( you may spare yourself the torture and just close this page. hah

 ngekk. trying to act fierce.

 

met with Kri Monday night. we had desserts at Dessert Master. Durian puff, blueberry cheese and Portuguese tarts. hai bu fat? D: but we were happy. hohoho ^-^

x

last night was movie night, so we watched Shark Night.

it's an okay movie - unrealistic, makes you happy yet sad at the same time because you try your best but you just can't find it in you to hate the bad guy in this movie for being some sick, grudge holding dude, just because he is head to toe perfect, despite that scar on his face, which, if i might say so myself, totally increases his level of sexyness. :9


hahaha i am sick! but yeah, his biceps are so huge and those eyes, THOSE GORGEOUS BLUE EYES AND BLONDE HAIR. need i say more?

but the main guy is hot too yo. med student with the perfect GPA and body. wtf. unrealistic movie indeed. aren't nerds all skinny and you know, nerdy? *poker face*

another unrealistic aspect of this movie is how perfect the cast is. all perfectly toned ass and perfectly shaped boobies and abs and biceps and whatnot. so if you enjoy watching pretty people get eaten by sharks, this is the movie for you!

throughout the movie Kri and i came up with a few more unrealistic things of the movie:

- are sharks able to jump above the surface of the water?

- assuming that they do, HOW ON EARTH DID THEY KNOW THAT THERE IS 'FOOD' THERE?

- i understand that sharks can smell a drop of blood from idk, 1000miles away? but at the beginning of the movie, the black guy wasn't bleeding or anything. how did the shark know it was food huh?

- and seeing how the shark can swim as fast as a motorboat, how then, did the main guy outswim the shark later on in the movie??!

- if your friend fell off a boat and you know there is a shark chasing your boat, do you seriously think turning back would make a difference? does witnessing your friend get eaten clear your conscience? *face palm*

- why are sharks so greedy? they ate one human being already shouldn't they like take some time to digest before eating another (more hotter) one?

- WHO ON EARTH LIVES IN A MANSION ON A PRIVATE ISLAND, WITH NO PHONE LINE??


oh well. hahaa. just saying ya know.
 if i were in this movie i'd probably be the first to die. HAHA

blah. i'm seriously lame though. bad boy bad boy bad boy (points to pic)

okay, shall end with a few more camwhore pics. teehee

 bought these glasses last night. finally man. love 'em <3

-

I could live without you
Your smile, your eyes
The way you make me feel inside


 I could live without you
 But I don't want to


so here's my dilemma: 


 One half of me wants you
 And the other half wants to forget
 My my my dilemma
 From the moment I met you
  I just can't get you out of my head
 And I tell myself to run from you
 But I found myself attracted to my dilemma


My dilemma..
 It's you

Selena Gomez - My Dilemma 

wait.. what?!

ahh. pics from Monday. went to Terminal after our final paper. camwhored all the way. sadly i'm getting more and more unphotogenic. :| 

sorry for making my blog so down and gloomy. i'm just finding it hard to get myself together. i'm a mess.

guess what finally came in the mail? :))