Monday, October 31, 2011

and so October ends

ahh, finally. end of exams and stress and hello 4months of fun fun and more fun.
just kidding, i'm working tomorrow. (:

today was a great day. finished the last paper of this semester, then had lunch with good company, and spent the whole afternoon (12-6pm to be exact) singing our lungs out. damn i can still feel my throat swell from all that shouting and screaming and singing. ahaha. great day indeed.

but all of a sudden, seeing one or two emo music videos, it made me feel sad, all of a sudden..
you appeared. i saw you this morning, looking so good, so good it seems almost impossible to stop myself from having these feelings for you. i tried, i tried to stop it, i really did. but it's not easy. all of a sudden my mood was low like fuck, i even teared a little from the MV.

sometimes the girl with the loudest laugh and the happiest smile, is just trying her best to cover up the sadness and sorrow that lies inside.. but when you see her staring into a distance, emotionless, with so much sadness in her eyes, please leave her be. no words will make her better. she just needs a little time to be sad, a little time to feel alive, but don't worry, the happy girl will be back, just a little bit of time is all she needs.

on a lighter note, watching Real Steel later. can't waited to drool over Hugh Jackman :B
besides, i deserve to be happy. it's just funny how seeing you makes my stomach lurch, makes me all giddy and happy, but at the same time, seeing you makes me know that you're in love with someone else, and that makes me sad, so sad.. 

Saturday, October 29, 2011

in a hurry

my new baby. this small fella' cost me RM7. kinda regretting it now -_-

anyways, i have to end this post oh so abruptly cos suddenly i'm short of time! there's just too much to do :s

just wanted to say:

in life, there will be people who won't accept you for who you are,
who give you the 'wtf' look when you do something stupid (in their eyes) in public.
 people who judge you without even knowing you.
people who believe everything they hear.

as much as you want everyone to like you, there will be people who just don't like you for who you are.

i used to care about these people, i try to act normal in front of them and check every now and then if they're looking at me, just so i can be assured that they don't think i'm a lunatic retard anymore. someone asked me, "why does it matter? you shouldn't be thinking about it." but i told her, i don't know why but i just care about what others think of me.

well guess what, i've come to my senses. you can think whatever you damn well please. you think i'm stupid, you think i'm crazy, you think i'm a bitch whose laughter gives you chills? yeah babe, i'm all of that and more. what tears me is that i actually thought highly of you. not anymore.

you don't like me?

too bad. go fuck yourself.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011


that awkward moment when pencil cases have better love lives than you.

*weeps in agony*

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

first impression lol

we were studying together in the study area last week, and Linda asked a friend of ours, what was his first impression of us.

and here's what he said of me:

"when i first saw you, i thought you were a foreigner."

my reaction:

but actually on the inside i'm like:

happy of course. cause when i hear the word 'foreigner', first thing that comes to mind is 'ANGMOH'! hahaha.

but he continued saying
"like your parents just dumped you here."

that definitely popped my dream bubble.

now that got me thinking. i was dumped (???!!!) here???? that sounded like i'm an illegal immigrant or something.

i was in rage.!!

"what are you saying i was dumped here??? are you saying my parents don't want me?? Oh my gosh $@#)$(@#O(@%#)$(@#"

to which he calmly replied:

"eh, don't like that lah. that was before i got to know you bah. because your facial features aren't really chinese looking, plus your curly hair. so i thought you were a spoil brat so that's why your parents sent you here."

my immediate reaction was :

first call me an illegal immigrant, now a spoilt brat?? too much!! TOO MUCH!!

but then it dawned on me, wait wait. i don't really look chinese, there's still hope that i look fairly angmoh right?? hahahaha (please don't judge) i'm a spoilt brat?? it means i'm rich right? HAHAHAHAHHAHA (double shiok sendiri)

so i went from the above, to ...

i'm a rich angmoh. suck on that.


Sunday, October 16, 2011

to the sweat drip down my balls

bored. so here's a tag i did last night. (: 

1.      Five ways to win your heart
·         tell me that you love me :p
·         buy me Hello Kitty!! grrr
·         I don’t know?
·         err I guess sweet talk works, but if I don’t like you I’ll label you a ‘weirdo’ and distance myself LOL
·         whatever.

2.      Something you feel strongly about
·         Fairness

3.      A book you love
·         I forgot the title but it’s about a guy and a girl who were childhood friends and grew up and dated different people and they even married different people. Somewhere in between they started to realize they were in love with the other but somehow there was always something that stopped them from expressing. Only in the end did the guy tell the girl that he was in love with her all this while, and FINALLY they’re together. But they were 50years old by then wtf. But I still love that book nevertheless <3

4.      Bullet your whole day
·         Wake up
·         Check what’s for breakfast
·         Eat
·         Make coffee
·         Continue facebook/twitter/tumblr (basically, my life)
·         Shower for choir practice
·         Lunch
·         Choir practice
·         Tennis
·         Dinner
·         Computer
·         Bath
·         Typing this ;D

5.      Things you want to say to an ex
-         But I don’t have one! >L

6.      Your views on mainstream music
-         No idea what that is

7.      Five pet peeves
-         people who dig their nose
-          guys with long nails D: 
- hmm don't know liao 

8.      What you ate today
-         Fried mee, pork and fish. Lol

9.      How important you think education is
-         Very important.

10.  Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play
-         Framing Hanley – Stupid Girl
-         林凡这样爱你好可怕
-         丁当 –  最后一次寂寞
-         Paramore – Ignorance
-         All Time Low – Bad Enough for You
-         Kelly Clarkson – Mr. Know It All
-         Anya Marina – Whatever You Like
-         U-kiss – 0330
-         Every Avenue – Tell Me I’m A Wreck
-         Kim Bum Soo – Bo Go Ship Da

11.  Your family
-         yeah what about them? :p

12.  Five guys whom you find attractive
Omg is this really necessary?? HAHAHA (well if you insist)
i.      Kim Hyung Jun
ii.    James Maslow
iii.  Higuain
iv.    Lee Min Ho
v.      Show 罗志祥

13.  Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it
-         Sometimes it looks okay in pictures. But I realize that I’m fucking fat and I keep telling myself this is it, time for a change, it’s time to lose some weight. But the thing is I never do. So yeah I’m fat til this day. And no, I’m not comfortable with it, at all.

14.  What you wore today
-         Nike shirt dad bought for me in Philipines.

15.  Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality
-         Cancer. I don’t really believe in horoscopes? But sometimes I do check them out just for the fun of it. But I don’t think all of them are accurate, or maybe I’m just in denial..

16.  Something you always think “what if…” about
-         “what if I was skinny and rich and pretty? Would life be easier?”

17.  Something that you’re proud of
-         Err..

18.  A problem that you have had
-         I have 99 problems and a bitch ain’t one. Hahaha

19.  Five items you lust after
i.      Iphone please
ii.    A brand new wardrobe
iii.  Those nude studded heels
iv.    New wallet
v.      Faded jeans!

20.  Your fears
-         Lizards wtf. You want me to go deeper? I’m afraid of failing. I’m afraid of how mum and dad would feel, how disappointed they would be if I do. I’m afraid of the burden I’m piling up on them with my never ending requests. I want to go to Perth, on my final year. I just really don’t want to screw this up and ruin my chances, ya know? sigh.

21.  How you hope your future will be like
-         I want a loving husband, he doesn’t have to be head-to-toe perfect, as long as he’s good looking enough to turn me on HAHA WTF. I just hope I don’t live in debt with tones of unused clothes/bags/shoes scattered in my house. And of course, I want to have a baby!!!! :3

22.  Your academics
-         Suckz.

23.  Something that you miss
-         when I could actually buy something with RM10.

24.  Five words/phrases that make you laugh
-         Knnccbwtfbbqsauce
-         “Hey ladies~”
-         “nigga I wanna lick whipcream off yo ass”
-         “You’re pretty”
-         “whoever said money can’t buy happiness, simply doesn’t know where to shop”

25.  Something you’re currently worrying about
-         Passing this sem.

26.  Things you like and dislike about yourself
-         I dislike how tardy and lazy I am. I sit on my computer all day and refuse to get up unless it’s for food -_- i have no idea what I like about myself. I guess it’s probably the fact that I’m surrounded by friends and family who love me to bits.

27.  A quote you try to live by
-         “Just Do It”

28.  Somewhere you’d like to move or visit
-         New York or Paris. Or UK! (:

29.  Five weird things that you like
-          Doreen Ho. d:
-         Procrastinate
-         Listening to emo songs
-         Staring at hot guys
-         Looking at picture of skinny girls and thinking can I be like that too??
(weird enough for you??)

30.  One thing you’re excited for
-         Holidays, family trip and Christmas! :D 

Friday, October 14, 2011

i'm on it.

what i don't get is, why would someone cheat when they already have a boyfriend? and from what i see the guy treats you damn well. and here you are flirting and touching some other guy behind his back. what astounds me most is that you have some guy friends in the same room. guy friends who i assume are friends with your boyfriend. what? don't they see that it's wrong? wtf. or am I old-fashioned?? is this the right way now? you can just flirt with whoever you damn well please as long as your other half doesn't find out? wtf. 

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

有一些人 容易動情也容易忘情

 intake for today. lolol. excluding breakfast. yum yumm.

thanks Mala for letting me have desserts after the horrid exam. i am absolutely clueless on how i'm going to get through this semester. suckss.

had breakfast with Wee, then studied at her house. and lunch with SS, along with Ee Hau and his friends from Melaka. :D
how silly of me i forgot to take a group photo. >:( only take photo of my food. wtf.

today was horrible. all the things that happened hours before the exam succeeded in bringing me down. can you believe i cried all the way to school? hah. haven't cried in awhile. i don't know how, but it was the best and worst feeling ever.

i don't know how to go on with my life anymore.
i just wish it were easier.

how bout a cute boy to end my post with? :)

Friday, October 7, 2011


bloody hell. i don't know what is wrong with me.
why is it in human's nature to be greedy? if i was more grateful then i probably wouldn't be thinking so much right now. >:(

basically, what i'm trying to say is....

i'm a hypocrite. that's all i'm saying. you don't have to know why.
 i'm just saying it out now, at least it'll make me less of a hypocrite, but still a hypocrite nevertheless. *sigh.

my ear is hurting, once again. the last time this happened i thought i was gonna die. (yes it hurt THAT much)
this time i feel it swelling and i don't know what to do. 

Thursday, October 6, 2011


aloha. felt the need to spam my blog with pictures and pictures, just to keep it lively. i can't stand scrolling down and seeing those old posts ye know. :B

so i just got home from celebrating Jac's birthday at Seasons. it was fun. i lost my voice D:
and the suckish part is that while we were lighting the candle on the cake she just so happened to get back from the loo, so she saw us. -___-

 something about these birds that keeps me coming back for more <3

 Jac's birthday cake, or should i say, cakes. nice right? xD
made by Mr Roy's wifeyy. hehe

 wearing AC's shoes. damn i kinda like those big shoes, makes me feel somewhat hip hop-ish. wuahaha. look at it! ZOMG

 also, celebrated mum's birthday after rosary at our house.
youngest bro photobombed her, but this pic actually turned out not bad if i might say so myself ;D

family pic!
I wasn't ready, hence the teethy smile.

 hello it's me again :p

 hoho. siblings babeh <3

oh ho ho. it's that time of the year where i have to straighten my fringe again. *sigh.

and there's something i hate, it's how something always seem to pop up when i've planned a gathering. sigh. i just hope things work out, have to manage so many things is hard. pffft

okay that is all. good nightszzz :D

Monday, October 3, 2011

please tell me blue is better than pink

*pre-celebration for Jac at Fratini's.*
nice seeing some familiar faces there. :)


Mala: Melo ahh, so many mosquitoes in your car.
Me  : hah? got meh? why i don't feel anything?
Mala: Got!! all bite me. 'cause i'm wearing black bah.

Me: so dark bo, how the mosquitoes know you're wearing black?