basically..

bloody hell. i don't know what is wrong with me.
why is it in human's nature to be greedy? if i was more grateful then i probably wouldn't be thinking so much right now. >:(

basically, what i'm trying to say is....

i'm a hypocrite. that's all i'm saying. you don't have to know why.
 i'm just saying it out now, at least it'll make me less of a hypocrite, but still a hypocrite nevertheless. *sigh.



P/s
my ear is hurting, once again. the last time this happened i thought i was gonna die. (yes it hurt THAT much)
this time i feel it swelling and i don't know what to do.