forget what i said. i'm done.

 i cannot believe what i just found out.
all these while, i brought myself to believe that you were perfect. that you're an angel sent from above. *rolls eyes

you're neither.
i was the fool, believing what i wanted you to be.
every time i have this feeling that you're not as great as i think you are, i shake it off. telling myself that you're simply too good to be true. i'd cling to everything that reminded me of you. i wanted to feel you near me, to know that you really existed.


every time i see your message, i'd smile like a fool. one message from you easily made my day.
i feel so stupid thinking back. did you feel the same? no. why did you lead me on? making me think that there was actually hope.
you should have told me straight in the face to fuck off. sure i'd be hurt, but it's better than wasting my time hoping for something that never existed. i'm nothing to you. just some girl you met one day and decided to forget the next.

and you know what's worse?
realizing that i still have feelings for you after all these while. watching my heart skip a beat when i saw all those pictures of you. i miss you. i really do.
i'm so tired of all these thoughts in my mind. one saying it's not your fault, it's me who's not worthy of you; the other saying that you played me like a fool. you knew how i felt and you led me on.
i don't know what to think. but i do know what to do:

i'm putting the past behind. i'm putting you behind.


i was gonna say that i wasted my time liking you. but... i just can't
like i said, you mean too much to me.
but it really is time to move on.


good nights♥!

i love my hello kitty's :3

my beloved Awhyo♥

damn happy ler finish editing this pic. haha

ok now for the pics of what happened the past few days. 

friday, went Parkson with Do and San.

we walked around Parkson, but I was too poor at the time to buy anything. T_T 

hang out at Coffee Bean, camwhored etc etc 

:P

oh oh saw a hello kitty hp pouch !

it's damn cute lerhh :S

am so gonna buy it grrr!! 

me me me :D

doreen and her hubby - Martin from Boys like Girls.

look alike no? 

haha!!

needless to say, had tonnes of fun with them xD

sadly, had to leave at 630pm.

met up with Doris dear, then went to c3's house. hoohoo~

her bro's open house

 

group pic !

then on saturday night, went sing K with a bunch of leng luisss + 1 leng zai!! 

da jie, Yen Ru, Candy, Siaw Ing + her sis, Siaw Ling, Kri, c3, Tze Kian and mememe!!

 

 had fun, as mentioned in my previous(i think?) post. 

feel damn sad singing with so many gorgeous ppls. T~T

lucky can 借酒消愁 (borrow wine to ease the pain)

wtf wtf hahaha!!

Sunday afternoon, celebrated Terry's birthday at Double Star. !

haha. he looks happy in this pic. ! 

so ham one -_-

i think i mentioned what happened liao rite? lazy type so much haha :O

then monday evening, went cut hair with PL.

OMG lor no idea whether it was a wrong decision or not ~_~

went to Louis. =/ 

so lor went totally emo last night cos I saw him there. stupid me. worse part is, he didn't even recognize me. where got like that one? am I that forgettable? haiy. :( see now i'm sad again. zz

it's been ONE FREAKIN YEAR how come i still have slight feelings for the guy?! gahh of all the times to be loyal -___-

so like,

moving on......

after the hair cut, dropped by Parkson to buy something Hello Kitty! :D
woo!! every time I think bout this part arh i damn happy. hahaha!!

it's the most gorgeous thing I have ever laid eyes on. in miri lah. wtf !! 

*tears of joy* 

 

*drools*

cute right cute right?! 

*jumps up and down*

wheeeee very high now LOL! 

dono ngam the bag or not. but dun care lahh~ :D

idk if i should use the thing, or just keep it in my cabinet, uknow, like my personal HK collection or something! hahaha. cos put on my bag later dirty how?! T.T

last but not least, an update on  today!! :D

Doreen and Sanjeet came over just now!

they helped my dye my hair. haha

wooo Doreen really damn pro lerh ;D sadly, the colour not that obvious, must be the product. hahaha

it was damn fun, the three of us kept goofing around here and there. then when we were done, suddenly my youngest bro opened the door and scared us. what the.. !! scared the hell out of me man. T.T

i screamed like freakin loudly hahaha!!

had a really good time with them (: 

finished round 5pm, then we headed to Boulevard. ;D

damn hungry bah that time lolol

bought lekor, then drinks! waaaa was so so full. 

after that, we bought bracelets. 

damn, there were like sooooooooo many choices to choose from!! see liao also blur. wakaka

but it was like heaven. OMG

amazing how we can shop even in sports attire. 

we've really outdone ourselves.

ughh.. i think i have to limit myself. lols. knot simply spend $$ !!

finally, we bought then went to boat club! 

heee~ 

Phoebe, her bf, Amanda joined us too. 

was having fun at the gym when the ngiao ji guard come tell me, only family members can come to the gym. non-members and not related one knot. -_- 

then everyone was like 

hey i'm her sister what. i'm her cousin ah. haha!! funneh :P 

Doreen's red hair. *jealous. 

hoohooo~~

NIGHTS! 

;D

wake up call :)

this post was supposed to be all about Scarlett Johansson being not so hot
but then while googling for her pics,
I realized she's not that bad
-_____-
ZZZZZ!
but only when she's not revealing too much.
:)

it's the 2nd week of the hols...
I think?
loss count liao lor.. haiiiiix!

maybe really should try growing some mushrooms, as suggested by terry.
lolol


arghh I don't know what is wrong with me
I'm so lazy nowadays =(
want to blog, upload photos then just leave it there
cos I'm too lazy to continue
~.~

so today I'm going to break that lazy habit of mine
and blog :)
[but I can't confirm that this post'll be good T_T]
and I'll try not to make it all about movies nemore :P
(later lose my faithful reader no.1 ehh!! Xp)



so I watched 'The Devil Wears Prada" yesterday :)

it's a nice movie.
hehe with a stunning main actress --> Anne Hathaway
yoohooo~

she was like nerdy looking at first then turned into super hot model quality with some fashion advice from a guy working with her

haha
pretty eii?
more prettier than Scarlett Johansson can!!
-,-



xxx

so there's this competition by Nuffnang!
really feel like joining
it's about writing a blog post about 'your lurve affair with...'
heh~

more info here. :)

but then.........
I'm lazy
T___T
aghhhh


bah suan liao! lool~
I'll update on something else
Xp



to those who said watching movie is useless and a waste of time
(if there is any)
I'm going to prove you all wrong!!
muahaha

cos from the movie,
"He's Just Not That Into You"
I learnt that,
"if a guy acts like he doesn't give a shit, he genuinely doesn't give a shit"


straight forward, harsh, and easy to understand, right?

if so, why are we girls still lying to ourselves or each other (sometimes) ??
remember when we were young,
there's always a boy who keeps on bullying you (movies always got lah, dunno real life got o not) or disturbing you.

and when we complain about it,
people will surely say,
"aiya he has a crush on you ma that's why always disturb you lah"


is it really so?


I don't think so lo
it might be true
but most of the time we girls have absolutely no idea what's going through a guy's mind.
for all we know he might be thinking about food when looking your way and you misinterpreted it as him having a thing for you


annnnd,
friends are always lying to us, saying things like
"aiyo dun think too much lah of course he cares about you ....."

when in fact,
he
doesn't
give

a


shit.

the truth hurts,
yea it sucks sometimes, most of the time
but still,
it needs to be heard!!!

so yea, thanks to this movie I realized something I never realized until I watched this movie. (LAME LOL)

which is . . .


he never did care, and he never will.

meh
and there I was, stupid and foolish, thinking that he's this great guy blablabla
when in fact, it was just me lifting him up because I thought I was not worthy, and that I do not deserve him.

everyone is equal in this world, whether you're pretty or gorgeous, rich or poor.
we're all humans !
nobody in this world is ugly!

beauty is not only what one sees, it is also what lies within a person.
someone can be as pretty as Britney Spears,
but her heart is as evil as Snow White's stepmother.

what's the use of that?
no one will like someone like that, right?
well, of course, only shallow people who makes friends with people because of their popularity and money will like them lo

but who would want friends like that?

ok I seem to be getting further and further away from the topic -___-

so yea I was blind but now I see.
:P

and hor babe I don't blame you for telling me all those lies lah
hehe
I know you just didn't want to hurt me
:)

but yea sometimes the truth needs to be told
and yessh I admit I sometimes tell those kind of white lies too
:/
cos sometimes the truth is really hard to say it to a friend's face,
plus,
I'm not a hundred percent sure, so who am I to ruin ones hope on something, right??
^o^


grrr
so yea that's all I have to say I guess?
so ridiculous of me to realize something so obvious only after watching that movie

what was I thinking all this while???
my gosh, that movie really is a wake up call
a good one that is :)


so yea
"He's Just Not That Into You"
watch it.
(but if not nice don't come complaining to me ah ;D)


makes you realize things you never did.

and made me understand that,
yea, he really wasn't that into me after all.

and you know what?
it's okay I've moved on
=)

okay sorry larh this post is still all about movies
T__T
I seriously need to get a life.
or rather,
start living mine!

an outing with the retards!!

woooohoooo~~
finally went out with my retarded friends
HAHA!!


Joan's off to Bintulu then Sibu today... =X
so it's kinda like her farewell,
and also welcoming Sanjeet cos she's back from NZ!
^o^

gosh I miss them so much!!

met at Parkson yesterday
Doreen and I were half an hour late!
ahhahaha
cos I'm the driver ma so *ahem* this is expected.

neways,
Sanjeet's car was behind us
then Doreen darling kept waving to her but she didn't see looool~
then when she went out of the car,
the 1st thing she did was...


pulled her pants up!!

ahaha!!

so was like so funny larh!
she kept saying: aiya.. I come back then the 1st thing you see me doing is me pulling my pants up.

ROFL LMAO


1st stop was KFC
ate the spicy chicken new flavour I think?
very niceeeeee
~.~

Joan and Sanjeet
retards!!!
hohohoho

Doreen darling and me.
sadly,
we are retards too cos we're friends with retards hahaha!!

(WEI MY HAIR GOT COLOUR LEH HAHAHA)

aidi our table so messy haha
me helping the two retards take a pic.

Joan, Doreen and Sanjeet
omgggg I love these three retards !!
;D

check out Joan's retardedly retard look!! hohooo
and Sanjeet checking out her own middle finger.
RETARD O NOT U SAY LAH!!
HAHHA

ok lah this pic nice :)

Joan, Me, and Sanjeet
;O

arghhh Sanjeet's HOTPINK CAMERA!!!
grrrrr


after eating and talking (we were talking and laughing so loud, everyone in KFC were turning around to look at us)
we left KFC luhh~
but before that,
camwhored a while
[dunno who's idea]

KFC's mirror
lolss
me San Do and Jo

MeSanDoJo
OMG!!
what a retarded name for four retarded people
AHHAHAHAH!!

MESANDOJO, our retarded gang's name. LOL





now,
proof that we really are retards ~



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...





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....

ZOMG!!!
San posing like a model !
hahah so funny can ! XP
but she really is model material

haha
she even said:" you know, if I'm gonna be a model, I'm gonna model under garments."
"then one day you see my butt in the magazines and you'd be like, hey I know that butt!!"


HAHAA!!! LMAO





love them so muchh ahh !!
Sanjeet is like so funny she can make me laugh just by saying something
even if it's not that funny,
the way she says it makes it funny!

;D

haiix dunno when Doreen took this
T___T
so ....
=.=
I dunno what we were THINKING at that point of time







so we walked round Parkson till our feets started to hurt so bad
T__T
round 5 ++ Do and I de stomach start to grumble liao lorr
we were at Toys R Us that time

Joan reminiscing her childhood times
lolol.

San with a gun
ZOMG I HOPE SHE KNOWS WHAT SHE'S DOING =X

San bullying Jo !!
child abuse ahh call 911!!! or 9999 ? DUNNO LAH!

see the two retards fighting.
ahhaha!!
obviously they are more retarded than Do and me.
^o^

~.~


neways,
something really funny happened.
San was like playing with the gun remember?
then we all played till the whole machine fell down
LMAO!!
so funny ahhh !!!
I kept on laughing there
then Sanjeet quickly put it back and said

"nice to see nice to hold, once broken considered sold
let's go nowwwww~~!!"


LMAO!!
but in the end she still play with the swords also
-____-

memang retarded

hahaha


then after all that
Do and I reli knot tahan liao keep saying hungry liao hungry liao!!
so finally,
we went to eat!!
hhohohoh


ate at San Francisco
we ordered pancakes!!
Doreen darling intro one

San and Jo
retards for lifee
ehehehhe

San Francisco Pan Cakes!!
VERY NICE HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!!!!
*drools*

eeee the camera reli sexy lo =S

R.E.T.A.R.D.S.

;D

R.E.T.A.R.D.S.!!

XP



arghhhh
after eating we fooled around in APple shop
fell madly in love with iPod touch,
then when chat with Daryl he totally broke my heart by saying
"iPod Touch suxk."
(something like taht lah but i forgot how he said it haha)

T___T
so yea now my heart is devoted to W705 only
hahahaha




bahhh
had so much fun with them
=X

then it was time to go ...
SAD LAHHH!!!
aduhaii
:/

reli love hanging out with them,
can laugh so much
oh yea now Do's in love with N97 liao lo..
aidi that girl

so flower one..
haha~


all the best in Sibu Joan~
all the best in NZ Sanjeet~~
all the best in MIRI (wow where's that??) Doreen~~
=D
owhh well,
at least I still have you, right, Do? XD




xxxxxx

Saturday night,
went to Serina's party
22 years old liao
;D



lelele
so kelian lo me nobody talk with me there!
watched tennis
hahahaha
the food was yummmehh
her mum's really a good cook :)


then I was so bored..
till I took a piece of tissue and drew on it.
LMAO

there happened to be a pen in my bag,
lucky bo ??

;D

and as I was stuffing this tissue into my bag,
guess what I saw?

=.=

the long lost library cards which I swore to my mum I didn't took

L.M.A.O.

I AM SO SCREWED!!!

my darling brother.
lols!!
the host too good liao, kept on asking him to eat some food
=p

like king lah,
last to come, then can eat on the dining table.
others need to eat in living room leh!!
grrrr

XD

suppose

wow...
saw him at pasar malam just now...


what am i suppose to say? how am I suppose to feel
in fact, I shouldn't be feeling anything, right?

it's been so so long,
feelings for him should have faded..
everything was even back to normal already

and
I just HAD to see him, when I'm just starting to have slight feelings for someone else
is this some kind of joke???

frankly speaking, I do not think this is funny.
it is seriously not.

omg
for months I've waited...
longing to see him for so much
now finally I see him


wow...
I told myself, if I ever see him again, I'd look him in the eye, smile and say hi.

did I do any of that?
no

I ran like a fucking coward


bah... I suxk.. :(

如果，每当我对别人产生好感时，都能遇见他
那我希望自己能喜欢上看到的每一个人！！！
那样
我不是每天都能看到他？
哈哈！！

hmmmm
maybe I should be happy?
at least I get to see him?
HAHAHAHA
he looks exactly the same as before
XP



ok?
I'm weird, this post just got from emo to happy.
LMAO!!!!


I shall now share some more funny pics!! hoohooo
^o^

see this cat. hahahaha
look like wanna murder someone like that!






deng deng deng,
and when he couldn't stand no longer
......




he killed his owner and ended up...

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...



deng deng deng



IN JAIL!!!

awww,,,,
hahahaha
see it's hair already grow longer aHAHAHAH
cos no groomer in jail





this one,
omg damn funny one loh!!!
all I can say is,
if I were a cat,
I'd be THIS cat.

;D

HAHAHAHA
CUTE O NOT YOU TELL ME!!! ;D

kkkk
before I end this post,
some pick up lines!!
hahaha!!

~if you were homework, I'd throw you on the table and do you right now.

~can you give me directions... to your heart ?

~you must be a magician, cos everytime i look at you, everyone else disappears.

~you drop something [what?] My jaw.

~Do you believe in love at first sight or do I have to walk by again?

~do you have a map? cos I just got lost in your eyes.

~
Do you have a quarter? [Why?] I told my boyfriend/girlfriend that I would call him/her when I found someone better.

~if you were a new hamburger in McDonalds, you'd be McGorgeous

~I've been noticing you not noticing me

~oh my gosh, I thought I was gay, then I met you.

this is the best
*wink wink*

love is a sensation

caused by a temptation

to feel penetration

a guy sticks his location

in a girl's destination

to increase the population

for the next generation

did you get my explanation?

or do you need a demonstration?

PS:
saw some samsengs back from CH too.
waseh obviously they were talking bout me lo
=.=
wonder what though, cos like whisper whisper then all look at me!
walau ehh.
make me so scared,
~.~

go one pasar malam need avoid so many peopleS!
T_____T

快乐,好不好?

觉得自己好像真的疯了


我为什么,这么的不快乐?
我什么都不缺啊...
要什么就有什么,
那...
我到底少了什么???
为什么别人可以快乐,
而我却不能!!!


是我想太多吗?
还是是因为耳朵真的很痛,
所以就胡思乱想??

耳朵真的很痛...


我也不知道自己是怎么了
为什么,最近一直说什么,
活得不耐烦啊~
这一类似的话!

我疯了!
彻彻底底的疯了...

可是,
除了和朋友在一起的时候,
还有和家人在一起时,
其他时间,
我真的一点都不快乐.

有时候会越想越伤心
感觉好像少了什么似的...
究竟是什么东西哦???

我曾经是个常常笑的人.
别人常说我变态啊一直笑...
哈哈...
"别人"
好像是在说他呢..
哈哈哈

他真的让我很快乐
虽然只是单恋,
但也没关系啦...
只要有他我就会快乐,
我就能快乐...

现在,
说是说放手了,
但....
我真的忘了他吗?
我真的放得下手吗?

喜欢上他,
我不曾后悔过,
从来都没有.

已经好久没他的消息了
真的好想他...
但也不敢去找他了
是时候,
过现在的生活,
别再活在过去里!

我要自由,我要快乐,我要....活

可是就突然觉得,
自己活着一点意思都没有
为什么?
很多问题都得不到答案...
这应该是其中一个吧!

难道我真的是因为他而快乐?
不可能吧...
我怎么可能让自己那么的依赖他....


想要你关心我
可是,
知道不可能啦...
所以也只笑着说自己笨.

我发觉,
自己真的好蠢哦~
嘿嘿...

现在和以前变了很多...
别人说,
我只要一点点东西就能快乐
但
少了他的人生,
真的很难快乐.

连微笑,
都很勉强.
也发觉,
我的自拍照,
都是笑得很勉强.
有些甚至是在苦笑!
哈哈...
我真的很悲哀

亲爱的朋友们
希望你们可以给我一点时间,
我会重新快乐起来的!!!
一定会

我要快乐

to my friends,

never think that I'm not happy when I'm with you all.
because I am.

eventhough I might be feeling down at that moment of time,
I am happy when we are together.
when we spend time together,
talking, laughing.
all that is real.

I'm really grateful to have such good friends,
who can make me happy even when I am feeling so sad.
thank you all so much...
I'm so damn lucky,
to have found friends,
that'll be there for me
in good times and bad.

thanks !!
I promise to be happy again... okkkk ?
^^

喜欢你，也爱你

1stly,
happy birthday to this sapo!!!
heheheheh !!!
=D

Joanna SAPO!!!
=D
hope you like my gift lah..
just don't know when can I give it to you
._.

AWHYO!!!
=D

what an old picture
=p

took when celebrating ss' birthday at her house!!
haix..
now she's in sg liaos.. =(
she messaged us all just now.
walau..
seriously,
I almost cried when I saw her message...
aduhhh ~

I miss you larh ai ren..



actually not much happened today.
so let the pictures do the talking
;D

da jie why so moody owhhh
=/

haha..
Boon San and Lee Fen
walk like going shopping liddat !

ah wee!!
lolss..
people so happy cause got new hairstyle!!
=D

teehee~
love this pic
see I help wee draw her name so nice!
LOL!!
and and, when taking the picture,
can even see the reflection of my phone there.
omg..
am I a good photographer or what??



oh yea btw,
check out these dudes !

apparently,
they have brains as small as a pea (hence the term 'pea brain')
to think that having hair as big as Phua Chu Kang's is cool.
like hello??

big afro's and yellow boots is so...
last year~
hahahahaha!!!

see Shaun so sexy.
hahahhaa..
hmmm..
where you did your hair??
Alan??
=p

ohh I see the hair stylist..
DAN!!
no wonder the hair like that lah.
macam kena bomb!!!
hahaa..
see him trying to straighten Shaun's hair??
lolsss


oh yea.
and,
I think Dan himself can't resist the oh so sexy look of "The Afro"
he simply had to go and get that look too!!!
hmmm..
wonder which saloon he went to huh.

wooooo
sexayyyy !!!

close up!!



and and and!!
seriously,
best picture taken in the year 2009 !
if you're thinking of closing the window,
stop right there!!!

cause if you do so,
you'll miss your once in a lifetime chance to see this picture.
omg..
it is so worth seeing.
I am such a kind heart-ed person to not charge you all to see it.
LOL!!!

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hahahahha
Daniel sakai!!!

*credits to Mei Shin for taking this pic.*
LOL!!!
LAUGH YOUR ASSES OFF PEOPLE!!

what you doing there Daniel?
trying to act innocent meh??
tsk tsk tsk

ok lah nothing to talk bout.
no offence lah to those mentioned in my post.
you know I'm just joking with you all.
then again maybe I meant every single thing I said.
ehehhehehehe!!!

PS:
BABE ARH I BEH SONG YOU AND YOUR JOB OH GRRRRRRR CAN CUT TREATMENT DYE ALL FOR FREE
$$%*#$&*%(&#$*(%&#$%
UNFAIR LAHH
T_T
SAD!!!!

幸福，从来就不是一个人的事。
我们，却总是自己就做了决定。

喜欢是友情，
爱则是爱情。

而我，喜欢你，也爱你。
可否，你的爱情，我在里面。
因为，有些人，错过了就是错过了。。。

而你，则是我，
不愿错过的那个人。

❤