I'll show you

what a suckish day.


I cannot believe such a teacher exists
as much as I wish I'm a forgive and forget type of person,
but sadly,

I'm not.

it's just ... well, ME, to hold a grudge.
I don't care whether she was serious or not when she said it,
but guess what,
I care and what you said HURT (past tense, present tense and future tense) !!!


you ask us to do a question,
write the equation of the Torque at Point A.
[see the shit I have to learn everyday?]


anyways,
I looked at the diagram then end up with a conclusion :
I don't freakin know how to do the freaking shiity question !!

so I just lay back on my seat
then she came said:
let me see your equation.

to which I replied:
I don't know how to do.

her:
you don't know how to do??

everytime I come to class sure got students tell me they dunno how to do.
never think just say dunno how to do,
how to know how to do?
(please lah I thought hard on the question ok)

then she went on and on about it.

you don't understand anything?

me: *nods head*
(cause I honestly don't know a single thing that she's saying!!!)

did you attend my lectures?

me: yes.
(as if that'd made any difference -___-)

you really don't understand anything about physics??

me: *nods head*


F=ma also don't know arhh?

me: that I know larh.

how long have you been studying Physics??
Form 4, 5 then now Foundation.
how can you know nothing about physics??
(cause I have a shitty teacher like you?)



okay say liddat not enough.
she proceeded to the front of the class,
then said:

if you dunno how to do these questions,
then don't even dream of becoming an engineer !
these questions are the basic of mechanical engineering you know?
you don't know the basics how to survive when you go to degree??
(obviously all these are directed to me,
wonder why she didn't just say,
"you're too stupid just leave my class and never come back.")



if you really don't understand a thing about Physics,
then you seriously have to change course.


pahh !
you think I want to take up engineering har??
you think I want to see your face ???
you think I want to be looked down by you ?????


NO !!

I WILL NOT LET SOMEONE LIKE YOU DECIDE WHAT I SHOULD AND SHOULD NOT DO.
I WILL NOT LET YOU SAY THINGS LIKE THAT TO ME,
AND JUST FORGET ABOUT IT.


"DON'T EVEN DREAM OF BECOMING AN ENGINEER"

is this something a teacher should say to her student??
geez,
I thought,
a teacher's supposed to encourage her student,
saying things like,
don't give up, as long as you study hard I'm sure you'll understand.

shit.
all those are crap.
you're crap too.
you think you teach very well arh??
bull shit.

think again larh.
buy a mirror for goodness sake.
I was just telling Terry about your 'fantabulous' teaching last night.
screw you.

as if you're where you are right now because you're really talented.
hah!
I know better.
I've heard rumours about you
I'm not gonna write it out

rumours aren't 100% true
but hey,
there has to be something to make people spread that rumour right?


owhh well,
who am I to say?
I'm just a useless dim witted lazy student,
who doesn't even have the right to dream to be an engineer!

awwwwww ~
:(

why you? why me? why now...

ehehehhe!!!

went to makan murtabak yesterday
with none other than my dearies
aka AWHYO gang members!!

wooo
went there,
because Daryl Soon is back from KL!!
wooots!!
=D

just in case someone doesn't know how he looks like
here's a pic of him ^^

hahah!!
taken with my phone wor!!
=p
I'm just good at photographing bahhhh
wakaka!!


we went to our old Physics tuition there to eat murtabak!!
our fav bahh
cause they sell the best murtabak ever!!
or maybe it's because we ate there together all the time,
so it tastes exceptionally great!!
^^

everyone went!!
including Bry and Karen !!
hehe !!


makan makan,
after that,
went to Boulevard!
Bry left us after eating loh..
always so early go home one that guy.
tsk tsk tsk..


then Karen also went back halfway when in Boulevard.
lolol
hmm..
Doris dear brought me to the phone shop to see my phone
x333
hahaha.
my dream phone!!
*drools*
wow.
tried it.
then ok bah.
they say the camera not so good but seems ok to me.
but still, they keep saying negative things bout it
now make me also unsure whether to buy it or not
=(

haha..
so chio
~.~


after that,
went up to food court to chat chat !!
=D
lols.
and omg,
did I mention that we saw Xiao Jing Teng therE?!?!??!
oh my gosh!!!
LOL!

tsk tsk tsk..
playing with lakia..
omg..


but still engtao bah!!
grrr..
why is he married?!?!?!
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL~




okayy back to this morning.
on the way to school,
guess who I saw?

LOLOL!!!

sakai Bryan of course!!
LMAO!!!
his face sooooooo funny I don't know why!!
just every time I see his face I will laugh one!
hahhaa!!!



ok here's what happened.!
drive inside the pujut small road there,
then then,
at cross road there,
suddenly saw someone's head pop out from the car.
then smile so enthuastically till his smile almost seemed fake.
LOL!!
turns out it was ~~

Bryan Goh
LMAO!!
so funny!!
shiok dao!!

then I messaged him, saying what so high.
he so long then replied ._.
and what he said really too funny liao!

Bry said,
walau I forgot I cannot open the window for three days lah.

LOL!!!

hahahahhaha!!!
he just tinted his car btw, that's why he said that.
hahahahhah!!!
serves you right who ask you go tint car never call me.
ahahah
=D


oh yea.
Bry so totally forced me to write bout him
hahaha!!
*shakes head*

anyways,
my pm in msn is now this:
"Blow The Candles Out.. Looks Like A Solo Tonight.."
Bry told me the title of the song,
which is "Candles" by Hey Monday.

wth..
very nice!!
grrr..
made me emo nia !!!
ZZZZZzzzZZZZZ omg !
T_T



lols.
now for the emo part of this post.

[PS: just because this part of the post is emo, doesn't mean I'm an emo person!! *ahem*]

monday morning.
drove to school as usual.
so happy, cause just burned a new copy of songs.
sang along to my current fav song --- cha jian er guo. 擦肩而過
sing sing.
then saw a car similar to his.
of course I also no feel liao lah,
cause all the time see liao,
not his car pun,
waste my time to even be shocked.
.__.

then
hah!
when the car turned into the lane I go see the plate number.
wtf really is his car.
then looked inside.
there he was...

oh my gosh.
I should be happy but I wasn't
not at all.
so shocked till I don't know what to say.

went on driving.
as if nothing happened.

then

suddenly I got all emotional I don't know why
and I started to cry.
just little bit of tears only lah.
lol
-___-

just felt like,
why????

why let me see him?
why now?
why not the day before?
why why why???

I gave up on him.
then let me see him again.
shit much?

so funny.
what a life I got here.
geeez


世上最遙遠的距離，
是我就站在你面前，
你卻看不見。。。

so,
I guess giving up is the right choice after all.
since that's what everyone's telling me...

and it is..
the wiser choice after all.
you just can't force someone to feel the same.
haha...

even when I laugh, or smile.
deep down,
I am unhappy.


haiyy..
I miss the old, cheerful me.

if only you knew what you've done to me.



but I doubt you'd even care

我難過...我才懂

what can I say..
I was so tired today...
don't know why..
slept in both lectures today.. =(
die liao lah..
not that staying awake would have made any difference! ._.

yes..
I'm that hopeless!!!

haha!
=p

kinda sad now..
pissed too
so many feelings inside my head
angry bout the change in the timetable..
sucks lah.
like shit nia..
have to wait so long between classes..
then by the end of the day already half awake.
ngaiti...
how do everyone else manage to stay awake?!
share the secret with me lah !
=="

sad..
cause can't join the others tomorrow..
sien lah!!
I'm always left out..
because of this shitty school..
should have just chosen Form 6..
haix

stupid schedule..

missing you...
so long didn't message you ler..
wonder how is it possible I'm still alive and breathing..
feel like breaking down and cry my heart out..
but I don't want to..
and I won't let myself do so...
because you won't care.

I'm such a fool,
to still be... thinking about you..

it's been so long...
yet I still miss you.
haha!!
I'm hilariously stupid!!!

sometimes..
I wish that I can just get amnesia or something
at least that way,
I can move on.

其實我比誰都要懦弱..

woo~
updates!! ;)

13th March 09' -- Friday.
went to RexBox to Sing K~
wooo =p
HH, Susan, Doris, Ss, Kri, Karen and Bryan went.
I was last to arrive ._.
cause b4 that went to choir practice 1st.
lolol..
then dad sent me there

wooo~
so shiok.
we sang till our throats wanna burst liaos..
kept on competing with the room beside us
haha.
whenever they sang loudly,
we go and choose those loud loud songs,
need to shout one.
LOL!

sohai~

then also,
the guy working there kept on looking at my dear Doris lehh!!!
omg!
haha..
but really beh song bah they kept checking on us,
like scare we'll bring drinks or what..
according to Susan,
Ss them were blacklisted for bringing drinks before.
LMAO!
=p

then they even looked down on us,
think we don't have $ to pay or what..
12++ jiu come and gave us the bill.
woo~
lucky we had SS ai ren..
she brought her Gucci bag (pro or not?) then pulled out her Gucci wallet (no joke!) and paid.
and and..
her wallet got tonnes of rm50 notes..
dunno where she get one ._.
rich people~
lmao!!

well,
that'll show them for looking down on us!
huh!!!

lmao..
sang till 2am ~
then b4 we left,
Kri laopo put her drink bottle on the table ._.
lolss!!!
then we all ran hahaha!!

then we went to makan makan..
actually I think I was the only one eating..
haha..
but the others also pei he me larh..
eat a bit also =p
by the time I arrived at Doris' house..
it was already 3am !
wooots!
1st time out till this late =="

luckily dad let me sleepover at her house..
if not I would never had the chance to experience this!
haha..
chatted with Doris till 4am?
then finally sleep =="
lolsss
next day woke up at 8am ..
omg..

Doris dear love Kuma Kuma so much sia~ =p

Doris dear..
haha

14th March 09' -- Saturday!
Doris' mum sent me back
1st sent her sis go Imperial work.
woo her sis pretty lerhh.. same like my dear..
hahass =D

then dear also went to work at Bou ..
oh yea..
my kakak still hasn't come back yet..
and I also gave up hoping she'll come back =(
haix..
so sad..
need to do all those chores !
*weeps!!!*

went to Bou after work to see my ai ren and dear..
then met jie there too LOL!
we went to watch the singing competition in BOu that day
hahass..
then we were the only one clapping..
all the others so quiet one ._.
but woo..
we have spirit!!
lmaoo!

then suddenly dad called,
said go out eat..
so go back lorhh

ah bi (cousin), Ariston and Ryan.
all sakaiss..
*muahhaa*

ate at Miri Cafe..
near Yakin there
my cousins are going to BAli I think..
eeeee!!
jealous bahh...
other people all holiday-ing..
while I'm still in school T_T
*sobs*

chicken chop!
yummmy~

15th March 09' -- Sunday
hoho..
went to youth mass as usual~
after that,
went to Parkson to meet up with Susan and HH.
Kri laopo working there too that day =)

ate at McD!
only Susan and HH ate larh..
I dun dare eat McD Anymore..
ever since the last time I ate there.. then had this stomach ache..
gosh..
so I only ate McFLurriieee!!!
hahas..

try to spot HH?

after eating..
dunno why sohai suddenly talk talk bout Sugar Bun..
then feel like eating there zzz!!
plus the place just renovated,
become like so high class so we decided to go.
LOL!
well actually I think I decided to go.
hahahaha!!
then at that time Kri laopo also lunch break,
so ate together luhh =p

see she so cute one..
haha..
I think she dunno I take this pic =p

MR Hao Hsiuu~

Terry ah..
I told HH that you asked me to take his pic..
but he dun believe lehh!!!
have chance go tell him yourself that you want to see his pic in my blog larh !
=D

after that,
Susan HH and I went to Imperial..
walk walk walk..
lols
see Nike Adidas shoes..
woo.. all damm nice one
=/

wanted to buy the hair straightener thingy..
but then too ex bahh..
then whole shop got sale but that thing jiu no have sale ._.
ahhhh

dad kept calling..
but I dun dare answer.. =(
cause scare tio scold..
*sobs*

430pm like that..
went to eat ABC in the abc shop near Parkson~
haha...
yumm!!
forgot to take pic of the prawn biscuit..
omg..
so big larh the serving..
hahass

then dad called again..
so Susan and HH were like..
God Bless You.
LOL!!!

luckily he didn't kill me larh..
just say pick bro and send him to school at 6pm.
*phew*

so~
last stop.
we went to Boulevard,
to visit the two sakaiis (whom I'm deeply in love with LOL!)

SS ai ren!!!

very chio bu bahh =)

HH and Doris..
haha.

Allan Lloyd.
my one and only sakai brother!
wakakak!!

aww..
something so so bad happened in Bou..
I broke up with Doris =((
sad..
haha..
I want her back ! lmao
原諒我~
必須假裝愛錯
別讓時間逗留 ~~

XP

then when I arrived home,
I mean, when my parents were back from tennis,
they kept on accusing me etc etc..
what I wrote in my last post lah.
lols..

can't believe my dad lorh.
he asked me where I went,
I just said, : " everywhere."
like that he also angry!!
apparently he thought that I was showing him my 'attitude'
zzz!!
it was a joke lah please =="
ma gu...
if I want to show attitude,
I'll show you my sexy middle finger okay!
haha!!

haix..
sad luhh lately..
=(
cried so hard last night..
till this morning eyes so swell..
use glasses to cover LOL!!
*si ah pui if you're reading this better don't jio me tomorrow har!!!*
=.=
wait one week later then can jio !
hahaha!!

oh yea I was late again this morning~
loool~
and forgot my calculator lagi ZZZ!
the lecturer hates me,
that's for sure =(

had lab just now.
the lecturer was hilarious LOL!
he actually scolded "shit" when his lab coat feel into the basin.
lmao!!!
unbelievable!
=D

sad thing..
timetable changed again..
=/
haix!!!

some pics of BEan Bean~~
hahasss

take 1 !!!

he very cute larhhh

cheesseee!!!
O.O whose sexy fingers are those??
=DDD

haha..
cuutte..

omg!!
I MUST SHARE THIS WITH EVERYONE!!
BEAN BEAN ACTUALLY PEE-ED ON MY HANDS JUST NOW T_T..
SO SAD!!
EEEEWW!!

PS:
Terry ahh..
hope you're satisfied with the pics..
lols!!
btw,
I believe you'll receive my bill in the near future ^^
*muahaha*

PPS:
omg I have the best lab partners!!!
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!

I'm not okay

ji bai..
feel like shit

just because I went out the whole day,
and when you arrive home I'm in front of the com,
then you keep on scolding me,
say what I never do anything.
never do this never do that.

just because you don't know, doesn't mean I didn't do anything.
who was the one who washed the dishes this morning?
or the one who brought the dirty clothes downstairs?
or the one who brought all the clothes inside??

you weren't at home..
so obviously you didn't know..
I doubt you even care!

how dare you...
tell me that my brother mopped the floor just now..
then accuse me of not doing anything.

how could you?

maybe Susan's right after all..
I get straight A's, you don't give a fuck.
but if my brother did,
you probably would give him 20million bucks.

fuck you.

PS:
sorry Terry wanted to update but shit happened.

heartless

女人就好比梨，外甜内酸，
吃梨的人不知道梨儿的心是酸，
因为吃到最后就把心给扔了，

所以男人从来不懂女人的心。

男人好比洋葱，
想要看到男人的心，
就需要一层一层去剥，
但在剥的过程中会不断的流泪，
剥到最后“他妈的”才知道原来

洋葱是没心的…

somehow,
I managed to shock myself,
by doing something so ridiculously stupid,
that I won't admit doing even if someone pointed a knife at my throat.
I don't know lah..
what is wrong with me..
you did this to me,
I don't know why I'm so crazy bout you...

haix..
that day, almost lost control while driving cause I thought I saw your car,
so straight turn my head to the back to see.
almost hit the bus stop at the side..
omg
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?

risking my own life for a guy like him?
obviously not worth it bahh..
plus, I had another dream about him =="
I'm starting to hate all these stupid dreams,..
make me sleepless only.
shitty

I want to move on with my life.

and I'm going to.
from now on.

went home early from orientation today~
cause lazy stay back le bahh..
=/
Sing Tze wasn't happy with me..
haix..
and.. I dunno larh.
I'm not very sociable..
I don't communicate well with others,
I'm just not friendly and omg lah I have a feeling that I'll go through Uni life without a single friend..
*sobs*

ahhh
I don't wanna think so much ahh!!!
let bygones be bygones..
I'm moving on with my life.
uni life...
and like Lee Fen said,

"其实呀，curtin也不是说很多帅哥的咯~哈哈!"
(actually, Curtin not that many shuai ge!!!)

and that's a fact !
;)

anyways,
found these funny 'things' just now.
hahaha..
remember, don't ask stupid questions =D

and here are some signs,
actual ones ~

Outside a secondhand shop:
WE EXCHANGE ANYTHING - BICYCLES, WASHING MACHINES ETC.
WHY NOT BRING YOUR WIFE ALONG AND GET A WONDERFUL BARGAIN?

Sign on motorway garage:
PLEASE DO NOT SMOKE NEAR OUR PETROL PUMPS...
YOUR LIFE MAY NOT BE WORTH MUCH BUT OUR PETROL IS

Sign on a famous beauty parlour window:
Don't whistle at the girl going out from here. She may be your Grandmother.

hahas..
lmao right?
^^

PS:
happy Birthday Anne~
=)

stupid dream.

had a nightmare last night!!!

omg..
I dreamt, that he's leaving for Taiwan just like his cousin.
and and and..
I asked him to meet me for the last time,
and he said yes.
then I waited ..
and waited and waited..
but he never showed..

omg lah!!!
I woke up with tears in my eyes okay!!!
and I'm starting to cry right now..
what if he really is going too har?!?!?!?
omg lah... sad..
so I quickly messaged my jie tell her,
then she comforted me by saying that,
their interests are different so it's impossible that he'll go to TAiwan too..

that made me feel a whole lot better.. :(
but still..
who knows?

haiyoo..
what is wrong with me?
I'm falling apart..
I really am.

I don't think I'm ready for uni life..
*sobs*

it's so hard for me to let go of you...