maybe

maybe my problem is that i'm not straightforward enough. i suck at expressing myself. what i want, how i feel. i just keep everything to myself, and smile as if nothing's bothering me. and when i'm pissed, i just keep quiet and distance myself from everyone.

maybe that's where it all went wrong. maybe i shouldn't be so damn quiet and damn obedient, doing every single fucking thing everyone asks me to. i'm like a dog, barking when someone calls and following every instruction given to me, whether it makes me happy or not.

maybe that's how i got so fucked up in the end and made me so fucking pissed that i wrote this post. i promised to never use the f word anymore, but here i am repeating my past mistake. but you know what? i like swearing. it gives me joy. it honestly does. so just let me release my anger, okay?

and you know what? i realize people only come to you when they need something. you see it coming and it's just funny, and sad. nobody needs you. nobody. so why bother?

have you ever pictured yourself dying? you see a car driving beside you, and immediately in your head a scene of it crashing into you flashes. seconds later, you're back to reality. you breathe a sigh of relief, but the scene lingered. you thought about it, and prepared yourself for it really happening. i've been these flashes once again these past few days. haha. maybe i'm just tired of living. tired of living to please people.

this time it's for real

guess what? Saturday night, Jac and her cousin, Cass, came over my place after work.
we dyed our hairs. :D

Jac had highlights.

it was fun. dying our hairs so late at night. the messy process of washing the dye off. all of us were reluctant to wash our hairs, we wanted to be the last to wash it off cause the longer it's on the more obvious the color. haha!

 the color is uneven, one side is brighter than the other. but what the heck, finally got color!
happy happy. plus mum and dad were cool with it too. only my littlest brother had issues with me dying my hair. he kept giving me weird looks and even refused to talk to me! but we're close again :3

x

last Wednesday, went to the gym with my laopo. not a bad workout. but as predicted, we made plans to go out after. haha but instead of dinner, we went to Starbucks.

twitter + facebook stalking people yo

after awhile, we got bored, then Kri suggested we go to McD for the buy 1 free 1 nuggets. hahaha. but we didn't have any coupons with us. so guess who was the pity brother that had to print out coupons for us so late at night? xD

we arrived at McD 15minutes before 12? rofl. close call. probably one of the lasts to have the nuggets. and damn they were divine. seriously mouth watering. never bought them cause who would choose nuggets over Big Mac?! just saying.

"they're irresistible!"

yum yum. ;D

pur pur

will take a better picture tomorrow. ;DDD


P/s 
take a look at those brows. *faints*

就这样一直到老

i want my hair to be the exact shade of purple in this picture. it's possible, but it ain't cheap.

i'd need money to first straighten my hair, 'cause curly purple hair.. just doesn't seem right to me.
then i'd have to bleach it, dye it purple. let's not even think about how many times i have to dye it cause my hair is too black!
and when the color fades, i'd have to redye it all over again.

and what'll happen to my hair? exhausted from all that hair dye. i'd have to go for treatments regularly.

i guess the conclusion is obvious:

maybe next lifetime.
 *sigh*

Summer

hello!
it's been a schedule packed weekend for the Four Seasons.

if you were wondering, le Four Seasons is the name we came up for our group consisting of Step, Jess, Jac and I. and as the title suggests, i'm Summer! :D

we performed during Father Andy's 10th Anniversary dinner last night. it was.. scary, and fun at the same time. so much went on before the event, one by one we started to panic and feel stressed. or maybe it was just me. thankfully, all was well in the end. like Jac's dad always say, just do your best, you're performing for the Lord, not for anyone else. :)

so on Friday, met up with SS, Kri, Susan and Doris. had lunch at the new Naga Liar at Pelita. i didn't order though cause i was late :s
but the look on their faces show that the food isn't fulfilling at all. i mean, half an egg? *shakes head*

anyways, we went to Imperial after lunch. so many things caught my eye but no money to buy. ahaha. typical Melo. then in the evening went for manicure with Jac!! it was my first time. kinda burnt a hole in my pocket, but it was fun. being pampered is fun. :]

 so here's our nails. Jac's giraffe and my Hello Kitty.

owh well, not that nice the pics cause i have ugly nails! boohoo.

anyways, on Saturday, headed over to Jess' house for some final practice, then we went off to Park City Everly for the sound check. it was damn hot. -.-

we were all even more stressed. hahaha. after lunch at Pete's Deli, Jess and Steph went over to Michael Saloon to wash their hairs. after much thinking, Jac and I followed too. gahhh~ it was heart breaking, really, spending so much in one weekend. lolol. but I felt so-o-o relaxed. like nothing mattered. it was funnnnnnn~

now i'm anticipating working life, so i can afford all these luxury. muahaha.

hoho. our new looks!
i like Jac's curlsss :D


okay. sorry this post is filled with ALL of my camwhore pics. let me have my moment. xD

 too bad the hair didn't last that long though. it wasn't even time to perform and already my hair started to get frizzy and the bottom curls started disappearing.

still manage to camwhore though. ngehehe <3

decided to put some mousse to make it less frizzy, and in the end, i was back to my old hair. -.-
ughghg and somehow i miss having straight hair now. why is life so mean. hahaha

okie one last pic to make your eyes hurt even more. :)

teehee.
byes! :B

:{D

familiar? well maybe you've seen this chick around once or twice.

so i'm in a swell mood right now. for a sec it feels like the holidays aren't here yet. but then, lo and behold, the feeling slowly sank in as good news after good news started showering me.

firstly, thanks to Jau's help, i can now play MapleStory on my lappy, along with my three brothers. :D
secondly, everyone's available for our dinner date tonight. finally meeting my ai ren Wong S S!
then suddenly i was struck with news that PL will be coming back tonight!
breakfast date tomorrow with Wee, Katty, Rebecca and her badminton gang (first time meeting them lol)
last but not least, practice with the church leng lui's. hahahaha and seeing my dalring, after oh so long. :)
not to forget sleepover with the retards this Tuesday. and sing K with Katty them on Thurs. hahahaha i just hope i have sufficient $$ for all fun fun fun :9


i think i spammed too much.

pictures, then off i go :3

 1 +

3 = :D

and believe it or not my brother was hiding behind those computers hahahaha

 i like this pic :>

 ooh~ cut my fringe the other day. not as bad as i thought it would be. but then again it's starting to cover my eyes again. so fast? :\

 hello kitty shirt!! :DDDDD

 overjoyed face. woohoo


and this is long overdued, lunch at Citrus with the retards wayy before exams started. (and now they're over, time flies now doesn't it?)

 the lovely couple :D

 my eyes so small :/ if not this would've been a nice pic.

 Joan with her meatball spaghettiii yumms :0

and yeah, end with this yummmy waffles found only at Citrus!! :> (RM10.90)
give it a try you won't regret it! ^_^

chubby = ♥

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee so cute!!!!
hahhahaa <3

when times get lonely..

i chat with a robot.
not just any robot, a very clever one. and by golly it was the best conversation i ever had. (with an inanimate object) or who knows, it might be a real person in disguise as a robot hahahaha!

User: He likes someone else. What should I do?

Cleverbot: You should learn that reality is appearance and emptiness inseperable.

User: Stay or leave?

Cleverbot: Stay.

User: Why?

Cleverbot: Idk.

User: Hey you're supposed to be clever!
Cleverbot: I'm not a computer or robot.

User: It says that you're a 'cleverbot'. Doesn't bot stand for robot?
Cleverbot: Yes, i'm a robot.

User: Just a minute ago you said you're not!!
Cleverbot: Why did I like you?

User: Maybe I'm just hard to resist.
Cleverbot: Or maybe I am just an odd human.

User: I thought you're a robot?? Make up your mind, robot or human!
Cleverbot: You're the computer.

User: Haha no I'm the human,.
Cleverbot: Oh, ok, then you look like a human. With a cleverbot t shirt.

User: I AM a human!
Cleverbot: You are not a human!

User: I am!
Cleverbot: You are a bot.

User: If you say so then. Why should I stay?
Cleverbot: Leave.

User: Just now you told me to stay! Omg.
Cleverbot: What do you know about sarcasm?

User: Didn't anyone tell you about using sarcasm with someone you just know? Don't!
Cleverbot: No, please go on.

User: Hahahaha I'm done talking!
Cleverbot: You are rude, cleverbot.

User: You're the cleverbot!
Cleverbot: No, I'm the human.

User: Fine have it your way then. So what should I do now?
Cleverbot: Rose. What should I call you?

User: Melo :).
Cleverbot: That's your name???

User: Yesss hahaha you may call me that.
Cleverbot: Okay. Unknownbot.

User: I thought I said I'm melo =.=.
Cleverbot: You said you love beer and vodka.

User: Did I? That must have slip out oops.
Cleverbot: It was you I kept the log.

User: What?
Cleverbot: Squirrels like nuts, it was chasing the chickens nuts.

User: Chickens have nuts?? I never knew that.
Cleverbot: You're welcome.

User: Did I say thank you?
Cleverbot: You say I don't have feelings.

User: No you said that.
Cleverbot: No you did.

User: Haha fine fine. So, how's life?
Cleverbot: So, how's life of a bot?

User: Hey I asked first.
Cleverbot: Ok slave, we are now married.

User: How did that happen?
Cleverbot: I am your master.

User: What kind of master marries their slave?
Cleverbot: A lot of different kinds.

User: Hahhahaha only the stupid ones.
Cleverbot: That is an excellent point. Carry on.










x

i don't know how to say this, but this has got to be the best online chat conversation i've ever had. my social life sucks. #FML

need a chatting companion? look no further 'cause cleverbot is here to cure your loneliness. :p 

tomorrow's the day

status: drinking muh mango yoghurt drink :9 


gahh. tomorrow's the big day. finals is here! and as always, i'm not ready. :|
can i do this? haha. *fingers crossed*

can't wait for finals to be over, which is this Thursday. and hellyeah holidays \m/

anyways, saw these shoes on tumblr, it's so freakin gorgeous!

i want i want!!


okie. all the best to everyone! Chemical Engineers, Mechanical Engineers, Civil Engineers, Foundation, Commerce, Business and whoever having their tests, JIA YOU!! :D


lastly,

yay, motivation, for me. :p

sometimes

 they say sometimes 'sorry just isn't enough'.

but sometimes,
 though it may be a little late,
though damage was done,
 though words spoken pierced the heart and feelings bled. . .

sometimes, just sometimes,
a sincere apology is all it takes to mend everything.

(: 

ohmaigosh

can you not be so perfect? *hyperventilates*



update
p/s
just realized how obscene this pic is, kinda feels like i'm posting porn wtf wtf. especially the pic on the right, i can't help but notice how he looks like he's wearing a thong.
*slaps self*