Monday, November 23, 2009

Daddy's Poem

received this email from my dad.
only halfway through it, I cried...

and you'll find out why :

To All my beloved children,

You may have taken for granted, the ever presence of your Dad. When I was young how I wish to see my Dad at home. But he’s always out busy working very hard to support us his 8 children. I told myself that when I become a Dad, I will always make sure I have always time for my kids. I just want you all to know that I maybe grumpy at times and open my mouth all the time, but all I want is for all of you to become good human beings and have a bright future ahead.


LOVE,

Daddy


Daddy's Poem

Her hair was up in a pony tail,
Her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy's Day at school,
And she couldn't wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her,
That she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
If she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid;
She knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
Of why he wasn't there today.

But still her mother worried,
For her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
She tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school
Eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees
A dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the wall in back,
For everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently,
Anxious in their seats

One by one the teacher called
A student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
As seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name,
Every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
A man who wasn't there.

'Where's her daddy at?'
She heard a boy call out.
'She probably doesn't have one,'
Another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back,
She heard a daddy say,
'Looks like another deadbeat dad,
Too busy to waste his day.'

The words did not offend her,
As she smiled up at her Mom.
And looked back at her teacher,
Who told her to go on.

And with hands behind her back,
Slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child,
Came words incredibly unique.

'My Daddy couldn't be here,
Because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
Since this is such a special day.

And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy,
And how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories
He taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
And taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes,
And ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him.
I'm not standing here alone.

'Cause my daddy's always with me,
Even though we are apart
I know because he told me,
He'll forever be in my heart'


With that, her little hand reached up,
And lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
Beneath her favorite dress.
And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads,
Her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
Who was wise beyond her years.

For she stood up for the love
Of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her,
Doing what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down,
Staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
But its message clear and loud.

'I love my daddy very much,
he's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here,
But heaven's just too far.

You see he is a British soldier
And died just this past year
When a roadside bomb hit his convoy
And taught Britians to fear.

But sometimes when I close my eyes,
it's like he never went away.'
And then she closed her eyes,
And saw him there that day.

And to her mothers amazement,
She witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children,
All starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them,
Who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second,
They saw him at her side.

'I know you're with me Daddy,'
To the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
Of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it,
For each of their eyes had been closed.
But there on the desk beside her,
Was a fragrant long-stemmed rose.


And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
By the love of her shining star.
And given the gift of believing,
That heaven is never too far.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Terry is B.A.C.K.!!

it's been a while, bloggie ~


was supposed to head to bed, cos I saw this huge pimple just beneath my forehead!!
*gasp

cannot tahan arhhh I hate it when there's pimple on my face :(
especially when I have a date with awhyo tomorrow night! D:



quite alot of things happened lately.
Terry's back, at long last haha.
actually he's back for quite some time already, only he kept hiding at home not wanting to show his face. =,=

apparently he wanted to surprise us lol





on the other hand,
this was what happened the other day:


saw a familiar red car driving in front of me (I guess YOU know where this is going right? wuahahaa)
I had a feeling it was her, and it really was.
;D


she was on the left lane, and then I stopped just beside her car,
we were in front of the traffic light.
and just at that moment, she turned and our eyes met :O

I swear my heart skipped a beat.
(OMG I FEEL MY NOSE GROWING LONGER ALREADY)


HAHA

we I quickly took pic lor
felt like paparrazi lmaoo.
and need to keep checking in case the traffic light turned green
hahaha


see see?? I managed to take a pic LOL
too bad my phone has lousy zoom function T~T
this is why I need a new phone, daddy!!! *pouts





met up with Terry, Kri, Doris and Daryl.
PL didn't come in the end. so did Bry.


aeroplane kings. tsk tsk tsk


neways, this is from Terry! need to frame it ler. like once in a lifetime thing. :P

so kelian lor kena jio-ed like what.
damn sad almost broke down crying.

surprisingly,
Terry wasn't the one who jio-ed me most u know!!!
it was actually Daryl Soon Jeong Hui!!!!
who's also my neighbourhooder! aren't neighbours supposed to care for each other instead of bullying ??

hmmph you should be ashamed of yourself T~T
pity lil' me :(




and on the same day,
had lunch at Sushi King.
Bry's request.

all of us went, excluding Terry lor. still in hiding at that time -__-
we were all late ! LOL
can you believe it I was the 1st one to reach Sushi King ler. after that Doris and Kri came.
Bry and Delicia came after us. *shakes head

wuahhaa




woo I ate this, again. haha
egg thingy, damn nice lerhh XP


Salmon Hot Plate

very nice arhhh ~
shared this with Kri.
eat using chopsticks, damn tough uknow haha

we were struggling there, I think our pants ate more than we did T~T

and yea should try it some time, very yunmmmy !



and when almost done eating, received one more surprise.
Bryan Goh suddenly gave me this !


Toblerone!

I thought wow so thoughtful ar brought me souvenir from KL.
then yuan lai is give me cos I got angry at him the other day -___-

and he bought it from Boulevard.HAHAHA
we all straight =.=||

can jia jia say from KL ma will sound nicer. hahaha!
that's what Kri said ;D




the day before, (Thursday 19th Nov o9')

last day of exams =D
didn't touch anything till...


Mr Roy tweeted me this:
"dun play2 lah... very hard uknow..."


my eyes didn't leave the book since then. ROFL

so sad luhh. took a glance at the 1st question in the revision paper, hadn't a clue what it was saying =.=

so started to panic wtf


blablablabla

who cares it's over! WOOTS ~


after exams, had dinner with Curtini~
we ate at Jing Wood.



om nom nom nommm~~

damn nice.
damn hungry too! HAHA




after that, went shoppingggg at Parkson.
woot woot ~

didn't buy much though haha
feel poor dunno why :(



bought this cute lil bee hair tie


and 2 pairs of earrings! =D

ah Ha said the ducky's the ugliest amongst all the earrings T~T
and yet I think it's adorable hahaha!
so bought it :X



haha cute rite??
but it's abit big ._.



with Hello Kitty bow tie HAHAHA



wanna buy colour contacts larhhhh ~
can't wait for mum to get back from KL!
will beg her again looool~



bought some masks too..
am using one of this now! ;P

there's 3 masks inside, rm13.90.
not bad rite?

^^


using the seaweed one now.



last last, this pinky mask! =D



that's it I guess.. so poor ler lately dun dare spend too much.
need to save for more outings, and also, KL trip ! :S


oh yeaaa !
saw W705 in PINK! arghhh almost fainted LOL
but then E71.... hmmm haha ;D

dunno dun care. wait till dad decides to buy me one then I worry. ^^


need to get angry more often, can get more Toblerones wuahhaahah !
*evil laugh






nites all! 12.50am.
*yawns


damn I'm getting old getting sleepy so early how to watch Gossip Girl like that T~T

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

photoshop!

feeling hyper now! wahaha
kindly scroll up, and you'll notice that I've changed my header!

if this is your first time visiting then suan liao!!


it's final exam season again. so the horror
oh the exam air smells so good,
the sight of dust flying from papers left untouched since like, forever is simply divine,
everything seems so ... lovely during times like these.
why,
even the sun shines brighter than usual.

HAHAHA


ok cut the crap.
finished c++ this morning.
just one more paper to go! woots!
good news is :

I've already finish studying that subject !
at long last no need to study last minute! WOOTS!

since the next paper isn't till tomorrow 3pm ~~~~

I spent my whole afternoon trying out photoshop!
wahahhaa
almost went crazy ._.




this was my header
only started using it recently, so yea it's new.
edited using Paint *hides face*

so as you can see it's hideous.
HAHAHA

but I used it anyways cos I was too lazy to re-edit it haha!





and and and and!
with the help of Photoshop (credits to ah Wee for lending hers to me wuahhaa)

teehee~




and lots and lots of time + energy,
and a little bit of skill of course!
*cough




I now present to you~~~~



THIS!
me masterpiece.

ok larh not THAT professional but at least better than the previous one right?
^^
kinda happy. haha woots~
need to learn more bout photoshop woohoo~


and oh, just so uknow, the pics on the right are like the things I love:

Chuck Bass♥, 辰亦儒♥, Hello Kitty, Elmo and Cookie Monster, Nokia E71 and of course -

xoxo Gossip Girl~~

wakaka



also, Wee's in love with yet another Korean star.
*tsk tsk tsk*


TaeYang.

quite good looking luhhh haha

his songs are nice, he can play the piano, he's KOREAN, dance. what more can you ask for in a guy?
and he's holding PINK roses.
awww! :3


but anyhooo I'm still not over Chuck Bass yet (haha) so yes, I'm not in love with him,
who says I can't be loyal huh???

neways,
try listening to his songs:

*Make Love
*Wedding Dress.

both not bad.

how I know? cos someone keep sending me links to listen. ^^
as for who that someone is...


you know I know lar
;D



Sunday, November 15, 2009

I screwed up




no idea what's going through my mind these past few days...
last night was a wake up call.
I guess?




fought with my bro.
you should have been there.
stand outside the gates or something, I bet you could hear us shouting a mile away :(


everything's just so messed up.
there's so much on my mind, I don't know who I am anymore...
one thing my brother said to me, it really made me go 'wow'. I never knew, it's just that.. the thought never occured to me.
he said: you're always like this. you're always shouting at me. raising your voice.

the way he said it, the hurt in his voice.. gahh.
no words could describe how guilty I felt after hearing it

that got me thinking..
every time my parents shouted at me or raised their voice, I too would feel bad. that made me feel worse cos now I know how he felt. but ahhhh !
everything was said and done.
we shouted at each other. and after that we both cried. and I rushed to my room. and...
that's when I realized, I lost.

why did I even shout at him in the first place?
it's just that, there are some things that gets me really pissed, some things, that I'm more sensitive bout. haix.
I'm the selfish one. come to think of it, I've never think of how others would feel.
the way I treat them, it's like, I don't know...
I don't know anything anymore. who am I? what have I become? am I the old me? or have I changed for the worse?

the answer's still the same:

I DON'T KNOW




last night made me realize alot of things.
knowing that I'm a bitch is one.
finding out that I'm a lonely bitch is another.

there I was, crying my heart out, without a clue of how to feel, what to think, and how to fix it. I was all alone... at least my brother had his friends. unlike him, I had no one.
my parents weren't home (not that I'd consider running to them with this matter), but still...
I picked up my phone, thinking of who to msg, and tell them what happened. but..

there was no one...
I'm all alone.
who should I run to with this matter? I don't know... I was never good at expressing myself.
everything, I kept to myself. I've forgotten what happened, or when it happened, when, did I stop believing? when, did I stop trusting? it's been a while, I guess. I just can't trust anyone that easily... especially things that are just too.... important ? not only that, I don't want to be a burden to anyone.
I put on a happy face every time I go out. and hide myself in my room when nobody's watching. drown myself in tears. though it's been a while since I last cried...
what do I want??
whom to turn to? who would willingly listen, without thinking of me as a burden...
who who who...

I'm all alone.
why do I distance myself away sometimes?


也许,是我自己不愿走出,已逐渐陈旧的回忆。。。
是我自己,太笨太傻太自私,以为,
自己一个人就可以了。
我知道错了,但

我改变得了吗?



Friday, November 13, 2009

I am crazy

Chuck lets Blair go

[clearer version HERE]

Chuck: you look like you could use a cocktail.

Blair: you're too late

Chuck: *laugh*

Blair: wow

Chuck: what?

Blair: that's the first real laugh I've gotten out of you in a while

Chuck: listen, Blair

Blair: no, me first.
Nate's waiting for me to give him an answer.

Chuck: I've heard.

Blair: but you wanna know what's stopping me?
I can't answer his question while I'm waiting for you to answer mine
the one I asked you further ago.

what are we, Chuck?

Chuck: Blair..

Blair: last fall, you said we couldn't be together,
and I believed you.

but every time I tried to move on, you're right there..
acting like..

Chuck: acting like what?

Blair: like....
maybe you just want me to be as unhappy as you are.

Chuck: I would never, wish that on anyone.
I want you to be happy.

Blair: then look down deep, into the soul I know you have.
and tell me if what you feel for me is real,
or if it's just a game?

if it's real, we'll figure it out.
all of it.

but if it's not...
then please, Chuck, just let me go.


*Serena comes*

Chuck: it's just a game.
I hate to lose.
you're free to go.

Blair: thank you.
*walks away*

Serena: Chuck, why did you just do that?

Chuck: because I love her,
and I can't make her happy ...


xxxxx






Chuck: *sigh*

Blair: What just happened?

Chuck: Leave me alone

Blair: You're not mad at me because of that.
Just like I'm not mad at you bout Vanessa.

Chuck: Stop telling me what I feel


Blair: We're just doing what we always do - finding excuses.
but I won't do it anymore...
I know you told Serena you love me


Chuck: Serena heard wrong


Blair: last year you told Nate, this year you told Serena,
you tell everyone but me.
why can't you tell me?
is Gossip Girl right about you being a coward?


Chuck: That's not true, and you know it



Blair: Gossip Girl can be right about you all she wants.
but I won't let her be right about me.
I will not be weak anymore.
you can't run. you have to stay here, and hear it this time.

Chuck Bass,
I love you.


I love you, so much,
it consumes me.
I love you,
and I know you love me too.

Tell me you love me, and everything we've done,
all the gossip, and the lies, and the hurt,
would've been for something...
tell me it was for something


Chuck: maybe it was,
but it's not anymore


xxxxx

"I love you too."

[better version HERE ]



Blair: Why aren't you in Europe?

Chuck: I was, in Paris,
only to get your favorite Macaroons, if you know what I mean

Blair: and Germany?

Chuck: to pick up your favorite faux stockings,
you know how I adore them

Blair: what are you doing here then?

Chuck: you were right, I was a coward running away again.
everywhere I went, you caught up with me,
so I had to come back.

Blair: I want to believe you, but I can't.
you've hurt me too many times..


Chuck: you can believe me this time.


Blair: ohh.. that's it?



Chuck: I love you too.

*and they kiss!! woots~!!*

Blair: like, can you say it twice?

no, I'm serious, say it twice


Chuck: I love you, one.
I love you, two.
I love you, three. ...



[this is like the most romantic scene eveR!!!!!]




you don't have to know me to know how many times I repeated these videos and how many tears I've cried. LOL

damn damn romantic !

Chuck and Blair!

I HOPE THEY GET MARRIED IN THE SERIES!!!!
MARRIED IN REAL LIFE ALSO CAN!

WOOTS~


Thursday, November 12, 2009

I want your love and I want your revenge




"Somebody asked me very recently a very strange question .."


"They said, Lady Gaga,

do you have a dick?"



"and I said, yes I do, and it's much bigger than yours."


;DDDDD





what else is there to say?

I admire Lady G.! XP


Wednesday, November 11, 2009

happy birthday Tshun Howe!


Happy Birthdayy to MR Yong Tshun Howe!!


you're 18 !

legal, finally

your long wait will not go to waste

to our hamsap classmate:

hurry off to Thai Bar and get yourself laid.



wuahahaa!

Monday, November 9, 2009

My Top 5 Treat List

everyone who knows me,
knows that there's no one better at day dreaming than ME.




so why not make a list of the things I would love to have, no?

you never know,
some kind soul might stumble upon my blog and decide to fulfill this treat list of mine.
ehehhe ~




okayy,
so let's start with the most unrealistically realistic one, shall we? (:


1. Meet the famous Taiwan boy band -
Fahrenheit♥
飞轮海


ahhh I just love them.

listening to their songs makes me emo idk why :/


really hope that I'll have a chance to meet them.
oh please please pleaseeeee have a concert here in Malaysia
:3


plus, a dear friend of mine (currently studying in Taiwan) gave me his signature.
omgggg !
she's so lucky,
having the chance to meet him in person
T~T


and yea really love her so much.
her giving me his signature seemed so unreal at that time,
but it was real,

so who knows?

perhaps, one day I might have the chance to meet ...
them. (:




2. Hello Kitty♥ Necklace !


this one in particular.
designed by Kimora Lee Simmons !
costs $1450
~_~

woots lols !





3. a NEW Phone!!

Nokia E71!

I've been eye-ing this phone for quite some time now.
then all of a sudden,

I saw somewhere that E72's releasing soon?

the effff now I have no idea which I want.
T~T

no worries, you can buy me both I won't complain XP





4. BLING-ed case to go with mahh new phone!


stumbled upon this blog quite some time ago
they provide blinging services. hehe

the price is quite reasonable,
that's what I think (:


love this the most.
I think I'm gonna buy this, IF I ever get my new phone that is.

:'(


this one also quite cute!
decotti bling ~

Hello Kitty♥! =D

love it all ~ woots !




finally,
I've saved the best for last! ;D

5. A New Laptop ! (all for meself!)


as you already know, or about to know,

I have not one,




not two,







but three brothers!

=.="



having only one dying desktop plus a lappy, which belongs to my dad btw,

IS VERY INCONVENIENT!


especially during weekends !

everyone's like fighting for the computer,
like that how I do my homework if no computer to use??

right?

hmmph.




the Dell Inspiron 13 laptop

if only I had one of these, all three also can
then my life would be much more easier.

no need to take turns with the three annoying brothers of mine.



woots! then I'd have the laptop all to myself!!


other than its sleek appearance + chio colours,
it's also quite light -- 1.8kg. !

teehee~ that'll make bringing it around much more easier.

more info on the laptop HERE. ! ;D







so basically, that's it!
not very greedy, right?

(:



Sunday, November 8, 2009

who says you can't have rock stars for parents?


*points to title*

MY very own rock star parents !
teehee~ XP


I helped mum with her make up worr =P


dad. haha




if you were wondering,
they're attending their company's annual dinner.

this years theme -- Rock.





parents went to Brunei this morning.
so as the responsible sister that I am~

I brought my brothers out for lunch!


at 3pm .

LOL!



in the end,
we decided to eat abc instead of the usual rice.



teehee~
brought them to my fav ABC store of course (:



and when we arrived back home, parents were back already!

and they bought stuffs from Brunei.

lots of stuffs.

T~T

there goes my weight loss plan


Excapade Sushi !!! ♥



nom nom nom ~
*drools*


am very full now. really wanna eat some more of them delicious sushi,
but as big as my stomach is,

it simply cannot store anymore sushi!

T_T

they bought chocolates too!
:3

Cadbury!!
wahahhaa~~

too bad it didn't taste as good as it looks!
hmmph*



xxxx

okayy that's all for my update. haha
rushing cos wanna watch GG...
I keep saying I wanna watch it,
but in the end I always end up doing something else :/


just some random pics taken over the days ^^



took this just now.
kinda like this hat lol

but sort of too big larhh haha

[then my darling brother just now suddenly say what this hat might be haunted -___-
and that it just might have a history.

wtf??]




hand sanitizer,
bought this when shopping with Susan, Kri, Doris and her friend.


me and my dear ~
haha

using this pic to compete with her other dear !

I will win de! :O




presentation the other day~
woots!




cute paper clips I saw in the piano studio!
*me want me want*


tis is the phone strap I'm using almost everyday~
haha

from JAc darling =P

loves it ♥



KC modelling my pink bag., and da jie act cute beside *ahem*

HAHAHA

his expression is so... lol. ~_~


PL force us to take this pic.


Mr Roy!

hahahaha =D

look like Harry Potter, no? wuahaha



iPhone!

LMAO


busy busy ~ XD


our project introductory page.
haha

me likeyyy =P