my source of happiness

here's the thing:
i stopped pressuring myself to save for a new phone. so this whole week, i needn't worry about not having enough money to spend because i must save a certain amount.

no more watching other people licking their ice creams while all i can afford to lick is the sweat off my face.
no more stopping myself every time i want to buy something because now, i have all the money in the world to spend!
muahaha!!

do you know how it feels?

great.


i've never felt this happy in a long long time.
i mean yeah i've had happy days, but the happiness i get from spending is 'special'.

i feel free. untied. i don't know? i just hate the feeling of having to stop myself from being happy.
and in this case, being happy means spending money.

thus, if i continue to save for the damn phone, then i would have to sacrifice my money spending so i can do some money saving.

however...

 being happy = spending money

if money spending decreases, then being happy decreases too.
now...
              who would want that, right?


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so imma make myself happy again later on today by buying myself Prawn Mee for lunch. then ice cream after. ^-^
in your face! (suckers who can't afford ice cream cos you have to save for a new phone!!)
*evil laugh*

 Kim Hyung Jun♥ (right)
my other source of happiness. teehee~ <3




-update- !!

Terry, being considerate about my feelings? i'm in awe.
hahahaha

goofy faces

sorry, but i couldn't resist. :P

 this emoticon made me and Vian laugh like mad. wakaka ~

the little things matter. yes, they do.

today wasn't a good day for me. was suddenly so so depressed at the end of the day, even i don't know why. *sigh
i guess it's just one of those days. y'know?

p/s i don't know why my face is so red in the pic above  .___. !

• it's getting late yet i don't feel like sleeping. my stomach is growling and i feel like eating but there's nothing to eat. boohoohoo :( 
• i miss awhyo! i want to meet them now now now!!! 
• so maybe i'm not feeling any better after all :(( 
• i still feel guilty for what happened today.
• am i a hypocrite for posting smiling pictures of myself when in fact i.am.not.smiling.at.all ? 
• addicted to the song '新不了情' sang by 萧敬腾 !  
• fed up with the fucked up internet connection!! FTS
• i miss my happy self. seems like just this morning i was laughing like crazy, yet that happiness seems so out of reach now.. 

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on a happier note, met up with Sushi and SZ on Sunday! they're having their school hols now.
glad to meet them.. hehe. really miss them both alot :S
had dinner at Mr Ho's. our whole JR gang went. luckily i made it too.

as usual, tonnes of juicy gossips from both of them lor. made us all laugh like mad.
the food was not bad as well! especially the pork from Sushi's mixed grill. haha!! that piece of pork really made a huge impact on my taste buds ;P

after dinner, we went to Dessert for ice cream. so wanted to wallop all them ice cream but screw my stomach, it was bloated after dinner. *SAD*
so we goof-ed around there, camwhored as well. ~

had a wonderful time with them. (:
enjoy the pics !

i lol-ed at my expression in the #3 pic (from the bottom). ;p



P.S. :
tomorrow!! tomorrow ! :)
i can't wait already. <3

roti banana

ahhh~~ i went to Ming Cafe again just now! with my familyyyy ~ excluding mum though, she's busy with LSS.
her being busy was the reason we went to Ming's in the first place :P


i went there the day before and i had Roti Banana. it's my fav !
then just now, i ordered the same thing. wuahahahhaha <3


i gave dad one mouth, and he said 'omg it's so good i'm gonna order one more!'
^_^
so i ate some of his roti banana even though i was bloated already at that time. wakaka

and somehow the orders were messed up and in the end one more roti banana came! (wtf blessing from heaven)
so we dapao-ed it and brought it back.

and after consuming all that banana, i am now slightly cuckooooooo =.=" 


so...
what is it about this 'roti banana' that keeps me coming back for more?

well as you can see... *points up*

it is oh so delicious that i ate it from this pic. yumms ! <3


aiya, sorry lah no pic for you all. never see roti telur before meh??
it's the same, just replace the 'telur' (egg) with banana.

after eating, dad eyed the empty dishes on the table, and said

"okay let's all run to the car."

-HAHAHA-

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and after that wonderful dinner, dad suggested that we 'exercise' in Parkson.
i just knew that he was eye-ing something. if not why so nice bring us all there.
and sure enough,
he brought us to the watch shop to check out his watch.

sadly, he fell out of love with the watch he saw the other day.
luckily, his beloved daughter (ME) was present and spotted an even more awesome-r watch for him!!
sadly, the watch costs rm4k ++
HAHAHA SORRY DADDY.    T3T

but don't worry it's definitely worth it. cos the watch is so nice (:
and i know you're rich daddy wtf so go ahead spend that money and make yourself happy!! wootsss !!
i think mum'll kill me if she ever finds out that i chose that watch for dad. T_____T




okayy another reason why i'm happy!

our new mouse!! woottsss <3
it's so beautiful. :O !

and while choosing, saw EeXin, Nicole and their friend. :O!!
damn damn shocked. haha!! i think Eexin called me.
i seriously can't recall, i must have passed out.

it's soooooo gorgeous <3
its surface even shines like diamond under the light. ZOMGGG just like Edward Cullen's skin when under the sun. HAHA!!

i shall name my mouse Edward. -___- what the hell. i'm losing my mind. i think i forgot to take my medication today. hahaha~



yuhoo~~ i'm so happy nothing can piss me off ;D
not even if you steal all my Orchids in BarnBuddy wtf!!
(don't you dare steal my orchids! *threatens)

hello bloggie.

it's been awhile, bloggie <3

ever since my ai ren left, there's just not much gatherings anymore :(
everyone, including me, are busy with their school works as well. boohoohoo !

neways, yesterday's Mechanics lecture was fun. haha

not the lesson, the lecturer. 

it was his last session with us, as he's only teaching us Statics. Dynamics will be taught by someone else. 

aww i'm so gonna miss him! 

cos he's like so funny. can't believe i only realized this recently, when he's leaving us soon. T3T 

during his tuto, he keeps on saying:

"okay. you see this question ah. during exam you won't have that much time. so must do it quickly."

"okay try this question. quickly."

"faster, take out your pen and paper, quickly. i give you 5seconds (wtf?). do it now, quickly."

and every time he says quickly, i'll laugh. hahaha!!

soooo funny bah the way he talks. as if he's in a hurry or something.

i remember the one time he looked into my eye and asked me to answer a question. and it happened to be the one time i didn't bring my file and brought the wrong tutorial questions to class. -__-

so of course i look at him with this dumbfounded expression on my face. rofl!
i guess he knew i'm one of the lost deers in his class, so 5 seconds later he asked someone else to answer the question.
it was sort of a relief, but offending at the same time !!
i was going to answer him okayyy *cough* not really *cough*


and i think he likes to sing k as well. can invite him to join awhyo liao lor

once during lecture, he said something like this:

"as you can see, i don't have much voice. 

so don't let me repeat what i say twice. i want to save my voice sing k tonight okay."

HAHA!!

and during yesterday's lecture:

-someone came in and announced that tomorrow's (today) lectures will be rescheduled due to the graduation ceremony-

"lucky your Mechanics lecture not influenced hor. cos as you can see... we are having the lecture now." 

hahaha damn funny cos he's like stating the obvious =.=


and after that...

"waa so happy hor you all. graduation. 

then at night go sing k lar? 

don't forget to invite me ah. "

LMAO!!

i'm so gonna miss him. :)

*sad.


x

our lunch. yum yumm!!
add the egg only rm0.80. hahaha <3


and lately i'm sort of kinda (?) addicted to photoshop. D:
it's just so nice being able to make a dull picture become more lively. ehehe!!

take this pic of Kim Hyun Joong for example.
obviously the 2nd pic looks nicer right? haha!!
i'm not saying that because i edited the pic, i'm saying that because it.is.the.truth. :P

but every time i try to edit pictures of Kim Hyung Jun (my lover forever and ever and ever!), the original pictures are always nicer. :(( !!

i guess this goes to show that he's just too damn perfect that even photoshop can't make him even more good looking. (:

teehee~

awwww i love love love love love him!! :P

during yesterday's (funny) lecture, Wee and I bought biscuits during the break.
gave the cute guy one and he said thanks. hahahah!!! *blushhhhhh*

i'm stupid

because i am a fool
the only thing I think about is you
but I know that you are thinking about somebody else
and you probably dont even know my heart

I probably don't exist in your daily life
And i'm sure you have no thoughts of me
But for me, I spend my days thinking about you
And my tears keep falling

Just looking at you walk past is happiness to me
Even if you don't know my feelings
Even if you simply brush me aside

In those days when I desperately want to see you
Those days that are so hard to bear
My mouth wordlessly repeats I love you

Alone once again I cry for you
Alone once again i'm missing you
Baby I love you
i'm waiting for you

bye bye, never say goodbye
even though I cannot hold you like this
I need you, I cannot say anything more,
I want you
I keep on hoping, I’ll keep hoping….

Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you

Because I'm Stupid - SS501

i know the song's old. but the lyrics are sad. and i love sad love songs. 

damn. sure emo every time i hear this song!! 

honja dasi tto crying for you,        (alone once again i'm crying for you,

honja dasi tto missing for you.               alone once again i'm missing you. )

and

paraedo dasi paraedo                      (i'll keep on hoping, keep on hoping...)

walau i love these two parts! <3 

too bad nobody to emo over. *SAD* 

lately i'm really addicted to Kim Hyung Jun lor.. 

whole day spent watching his videos on youtube. wtf 

is that the cause of my eye infection? cos hell no i won't stop watching his vids even if it's the only way to cure my eye.! 

and and, i actually recorded a video of Kim Hyung Jun saying "我爱你" (i love you)! 

in a totally cute way and used it as my message ringtone.. hahaha!! 

he's pretty good in english ler. and he can even play the piano. WALAU! 

why so talented?? D: 

here's a video of Kim Hyun Joong performing the song solo. (take note of the name, it's not the same person okay) 

not bad larh. though slightly out of tune at certain areas, but who am i to judge? 

got one part he sang wrongly. haha 

and he smiled and apologized . so cuteeeeee ! 

watch it if you have nothing better to do.. hohoho

i'm off to bed. nights people! (: 

联谊

yay~ finally done editing the pix (stolen from my airenn :P)
so yeah, be ready for a huge wave of pix in this post. !! wooots \m/

and since my ai ren already uploaded the pix on FB and some on her blog as well, i edited all the pix so that they won't seem the same. hehe

Thursday

we dined at the very famous Excapade Sushi in Brunei.
many things happened during the trip, frustrating + scary + funny all at the same time. -__-

firstly, we all waited for PL to arrive.! waited damn damn long. all 4 of us girls were pissed. damn pissed.
everyone scolding him in our msgs. hahaha!


luckily managed to change our reservation time.
so we rushed. didn't really know the way, had to turn back some more +_+
ai ren's car hit dao so many bumps. :(
and can feel she so stress too. hais.

but thank goodness we managed to arrive there 7pm sharp ;D

unlucky event no.2 - when we arrive, no electricity. wtf
the electricity kept going on and off. but luckily didn't affect the place we were sitting.
and we were even told all the food that need electricity to make are unavailable!
so had to cancel my Honey Dew Milk Tea!!

but after awhile electric back liao. haha and i saw the table beside us ordering this huge drink. looks yummy too. so i ordered that ;D

Rocky Road $4.
yummsss!!



we ordered sushi and sashimi set, $50 first. then while waiting, we kept drooling over the menu, in search of other yummy sushi's to eat!!

the menu's so drool-able right?! ehehe (must thank my pro editing skills too wakakaa)

"this one looks nice hor!" *stomach growls*

"ya lor ya lor."

"walauu this one also damn nice!! "

"aiya, order all lah." 

lol!!

spot the Oscar winner in this pic! hahaha!! :P



in the end, we ordered more than our stomachs can fill.
oh, money also ngam ngam spend all. haha!!

but damn, we were happy.
while waiting for the food, we kept taking photos *cough
talk cock-ing and what not. but we all damn good lah, we made peace with PL. heehee~

check out the size of the sushi sashimi set. :O !!

more pix. haha

while eating, suddenly a table started singing the birthday song. so we all joined in. ROFL
after singing we all screamed and clapped our hands. lol lol

then when that table done, suddenly another table start singing again .__.
not sure whether they were mocking the table before, or really got a birthday celebrant in that table too!

haha ok lah. enough pics of us!
i know you want to see the food, right?? hehehe.
and i've mentioned in Twitter. whoever see the pics will definitely drool!! wuahahhaa

wasabi. don really like wasabi T.T
but if we don't eat it with the sushi worms will grow in our brain. *SAD

sushi sashimi set - close up.

our pizza!! $5 only ler.
damn damn yummy!!!!

:P

our deserts!

chocolate ice cream

and macha ice cream, + fruit cocktails.
hehe. damn greedy lor us. haha




we finished eating at 9pm. hoho~ then decided to head home. we were already running late lor. custom closes at 10pm.
kinda risky to leave so late, like what if they close early? :S

so we were in a hurry to get our fat asses home. but the cashier damn slow!!
all our orders need to double check again. waste our time. and they canceled my drink at first, but they still charged us for it. luckily we found out and told them.

but we only realized that they charged us extra for something we didn't order inside the car. :(
too bad we didn't had time. haha
if not can watch Susan scold the cashier. rofl


the roadtrip home was kinda scary. it was raining a lil'
and there was thunder + lighting D:
i even saw the lightning move. wtf!!!
damn scary. T.T

but we made it home safely (:
Praise the Lord. hehe



x

Friday

went to sing K at RexBox.
actually, i didn't plan on going sing k with my lovers. cos really ginteo le bah. scare my parents kill me.
but i went out, cos i thought they changed the plan to yam teh at Yong Le. -___-

suddenly change plan. wtf. haha

left home at 10pm, i think mum wanted to kill me. *gulps.
dad didn't know cos he wasn't home.
and guess what, i sing K with them til 2am. hahaha!!

happy happy (:

arghh. no photo of all of us together. D:


the only good thing bout Rex Box is the background. damn nice for photoshooting.
other than that...

service sucks.
song machine sucks.

=.="

but owh well. haha. we had fun scolding the people there anyways. wuahaha!
okayy not we, just Susan and Kri. LOL!

my ai renn ordered this. hais!! bad influence on us all lar *shakes head*

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drunk tards! hahaha.
Doris Ting wasn't really drinking lor! damn pro at acting arh her. hahaha

and Susan's actually saying that this is her first time drinking beer. PUI! ;D

my laopo~
damn chio of course. cos is my laopo. hahaha!!

me and my ai renn! got sweet dao hor. xD

PL and Doris.
look like couple eh wtf!! HAHAHA Doris Ting don kill me T_T

and this,
is
my
fav.
haha!



Saturday

went site visit early in the morning. 830am. supposed to be 730am but postponed, ! muahaha

visited LAKU.
kept waiting for the shuai ge in my group (oops did i just say that out loud?) to come. but he didn't!!
ahhh!! T.T

sad lol!
the candle of hope burning brightly deep in my heart immediately blew out.  (terry teach me one rofl)
i was devastated, and life seemed hopeless and cruel and and well, sad. ...

til another shuai ge entered the bus that is. HAHAHA


okay ignore me. i was high that day idk why. damn crazy. keep laughing =.=
must be something in the 'you cha kueh'

took this while walking. WTF
couldn't stop laughing after seeing the face. HAHA
Katty laughed with us. lol lol

and the hell, i never knew i was this short lor!!
til Wee's eyes only T____T

this is somewhere in LAKU.
looks like swimming pool hor the sedimentation tank(i think?)

so ham. ZZZ
let me die please T_T


and just as i was bragging to Susan telling her that mum and dad didn't scold me for staying out late the night before,
dad knocked on our (my bro and I) doors, and ordered us to go downstairs to have 'a talk'.
 you know what happens after that.
sad case.

Sunday

but after all that scolding, mum and dad are in a super good mood today O_O
brought us shopping even. !
and I saw Mr Roy there. haha

and my left eye is swelling. :((
don't know what happened.
might be cos my contacts are old, or i saw something i shouldn't have. D:


also,
had pudding with Wee in Bou. and kaya balls.

nice!! (:

i'm happy. hehehehehe
*contented.

feel like tinting my car though, seeing as how the weather is damn effing hot!! ughhh